Smile is the biggest gift

男生女生

2012-01-08T12:05:00.000+08:00

男生女生本来就大不同，无论是生理上还是心理上，终究差个十万八千里。男生说很难理解女生的心到底在想些什么，而女生则觉得自己要的其实很简单，只是男生不曾去了解。
女性生理期，是个多么关键的时刻，但偏偏男生就是无法理解，即使是医学系男生也无法体会。男生懂什么叫作生理期症状吗？懂什么是子宫重坠感吗？知道荷尔蒙水平下降所引起的烦躁，多虑和多愁善感吗？男生就是不知道嘛，就只是一味的觉得女生很麻烦，懦弱。生理期时，多么需要别人的关心啊，即使是一个小小小小的问候，女生都会像花痴一样。但你做到吗？
撇开女性生理期不说，男生也有月经般的低潮期。但至少男生没有生理上的折磨。女生面对男生的低潮，显得不安，想尽办法安慰体谅。换过头，男生觉得女生诸多管制。

重新看了你的blog的文章。" may it will listen to you, care about you and accompany you when i am not around." , " the special one, sorry for not accompanying you the past few weekends."
如果它能代替你的一切，那我需要你的存在吗？
已经有多久，你没有对我的忽略而感到抱歉？有谁想被忽略的感觉侵袭？有谁不想学会独立？不是没有了你，我就不行。只是我太不忽略你了，我选择把你放在优先位置，断绝任何的暧昧，体谅你的感受。你并不能扼杀了我的努力。难道你的付出是付出，而我的就是理所当然？是我不够成熟，还是你不够体贴？还是我们都不够合适？

最后一句，拥有是失去的开始。

2011-12-07T16:01:00.000+08:00

我真的很笨，笨到自己也无法接受。
生活很累，无法控制心情。

亲爱的家人，其实我爱你们。谢谢一直以来的包容。

亲爱的朋友，其实我想你们。谢谢一直以来的陪伴。

TMD

2011-11-20T12:51:00.000+08:00

TMD, i have the same shoe with that person.
TMD, i want holiday la,although 1 week more for exam.
TMD, i hate to be cheated or hidden.
TMD, guys are not trustworthy.
TMD, i am getting mad.
TMD, i have no mood to study.
TMD, act like normal but does not mean nothing happened.
TMD, i need friends around.
TMD, i hate that girl.
TMD, i am suspicious enough.
TMD, i am always low self-confidence.
TMD, if does not like me ,then please GO AWAY !!!
TMD, guys are eye-minded animals.
TMD, i need to be loved rather than love others.

TMD, i want to get back myself.
TMD, YOU sucks.
TMD, LIFE sucks !!!!!

那些年。。

2011-11-06T09:54:00.001+08:00

昨晚，在别人忙着准备期末考的时候，我就真的在放松，不，是堕落。
看了‘那些年，我们一起追过的女孩’，很有感触。许多画面就一直随着电影情节浮现在我脑海里。
好想念中学时期的我们，放肆的，无忧无虑的，青春的我们。虽然没有电影中的情节，但就还是有自己心中的回忆。青春就是无限的回忆。

电影院从一开始就充满了笑声，就到结尾的当儿，变成非常沉寂，大概许多人都在偷偷的泛泪光吧。他看了看我，是的，我的眼睛十分的’水汪汪’。好希望，看到的是好的结局。

这样的遗憾，很美吧？我觉得很美，但也很可惜。沈佳宜说：“恋爱最美的时候，就是暧昧的时候。” 我赞同。你可有尝试过暧昧的感觉？

我心中也有个柯景腾，我很感动他给了我那一段暧昧的回忆。因为有它，我的人生有了美丽的遗憾。
或许我也是别人心中的沈佳宜。呵呵。

很想说，
柯景腾（九把刀），你煞到我了。。

亲爱的自己

2011-10-17T23:50:00.000+08:00

亲爱的自己，好好爱自己，没人总心疼你。如果不开心了，就找个角落大哭一下，你不需要别人同情可怜。

亲爱的自己，学会控制自己的情绪，谁都不欠你，所以不要随便跟人发脾气耍性子。

亲爱的自己，全世界只有一个你，就算没有人懂得欣赏，你也要好好爱自己！你要相信

=)

2011-10-06T17:31:00.001+08:00

hey guys, i do not what is going on about my broken pictures displayed on my blog.

is it my image properties problem or any else?

but anyway, i neglected my blog.

Not really have mood to blog. Sometimes feel like updating,but somehow nothing to write or can say that i have nothing to share.

Share my happiness?? or emo-ness?? I think the latter should be.

October will be my busy week. I should study hard to catch up my weak subject like biz finance!!!

My brain is just cant function well with math,biz theory all that !! Is it symbolize that i am not that KIRA person?? XD

ok, wanna to crictise something (someone).

-/He/She really has no any other clothes to wear,is it? Everytime wearing the same clothes and pattern!!

- Everytime wanna act like angmoh !!! said DISLIKE TO TYPE CHINESE, DISLIKE CHINESE,DONT WANT TO DEAL WITH CHINESE bla bla bla, The point is : sorry lo, your english not seems like very good and you speak chinese all the way !!! I confirm that you YOU YOU is more comfortable with CHINESE.

- Back stabbing people like you are innocent.. PUI....

and.....many many more~~ MANY MANY MORE !!!

really geram to talk about this person.

ok,calm down.

bye =)

picture sharing !

2011-09-04T15:02:00.001+08:00

Hi, Sept . But i want to update stg in August ~
YEAH~~ i went Hong Kong for a week. Our PURPOSE is actually for TCM Conference..yet we all know that....Conference is just 1 day,then other daysssss...hehehe...

Here is only some pictures shown,and i am quite lazy to update actually. =)

I know i am so lazy..ya i am..just shared pictures,but there is lotsssssssssss more pictures in my camera !!!!!!!

cheers,
lazy girl.

BATAM trip

2011-07-27T21:28:00.000+08:00

kf : hey, i wanna go batam eh..
me : when o?? next weekend a?? i also wanna go eh..but my bf not free...
kf : next weekend la..23th and 24th la..2 days 1 night..
me : ok, on !! go ask other ppl..

ok well, our BATAM trip was decided within these few minutes. in the end, 4 of us were going for a short travel to nearby Batam,Indonesia. We are friends for more than 10 years,studied together,stayed together,however we never have a our own trip. This is the time and chance for us to meet meet although we all staying in Sg now.

this is our ferry - PENGUIN

simply like this pic~ ^^

After checking in to 89 Hotel,then we went to NAGOYA HILLS SHOPPING MALL to have our lunch and walk walk lo. It is simply many many many many many BRANDED things over there such as bags,clothes, shoes, digital and so on.

our left money after a half day travel~~

Had a poker game session and drinking part at night. =)

very obvious,right?? he is drunk !!!

POLAROIDS taken by my mini white 7s

Before going back to terminal, we went to a famous temple near Batam Center. We are so amazed by its gorgeous building.

A very VERY large TEMPLE !!!

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I really appreciated the time that we together, quite a long time we never travel together and had fun.

I hope the bonding between us will stay long and stronger when time goes. Friends are always be there whenever we need them.

Love u all, my friends. =)

260611 Museumssss

2011-07-01T11:26:00.001+08:00

seems i abandoned this page for quite a long time. Let's do some updates !!!

Currently I am in sg,doing my lab research for August HK conference and also working part time lo.

Don't ask me what HK conference,what kind of lab research and what is my job ~~ =)

I am just doing daily repetitious task--> data entry (although is different kind of data). I am always looking forward to weekends since i can wake up late and take a fresh breath outside NTU !!!! About my lab,have no comment.. 1 thing,my TA (Teaching Assistant) is a very pretty girl however so sad she is leaving soon...

My lab buddies !!! ^^

Last Sunday went museums with Mr Cheng. I like this kind of dating rather than shopping shopping and shopping. My pocket just bleed a lot bcz of SHOPPING !! better don't ~~~
Singapore Philatelic Museum is our first station. Emm, it is all about stamps,stamps and STAMPS !! still have those communication,messaging history all that. We are not stamp enthusiast and also not really understand those histories. But we had fun of taking pictures. hehe

I AM A STAMP

cutie cutie little things ~~

the hat is too big for me la.. lolssss

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Old time post box !!

Next station, is Singapore Peranakan Museum. What is Peranakan??erm,is like baba and nyonya that we all know la.. There shows many galleries,such as food and fiesting,wedding,religion, clothings,lifestyle and so on. You will be amazed by their beadworks and jewelleries. =)

I think i am a failed wife then..

geng,right???

It is all made of tiny beads !!!

erm,ok la, few pictures shown here only.

|I enjoyed the half day trip,act like a foreginer.

KamsaHamida Mr Cheng for the guiding and accompanying, Ah bek !!

p/s : actually now i am in office and working.. blekzzzzzz =P

？问号？

2011-05-26T00:45:00.000+08:00

有人对我说过，一段感情的开始只需要一点点的激情，但如何经营下去就不再是激情所能概括。

爱情中，若没有了当初的感觉，就是否到了尽头？剩下责任，更多的约束，负担，想必这段感情维持得很困难。女生的多疑，多愁善感，碎碎念，肯定让男生抓狂。但想想，该女生的出发点是什么？为了自己吗？当自己的心意心思不被珍惜，换来反而是不谅解责备，女生会怎样处理呢？我，真的不知道，但至少我知道 ‘委屈’ 的感觉已造成。

今天，我没踏出家门。关上手机，没与任何人联络，就连家人也联络不上我。不是在闹失踪闹情绪发神经，就是想静静的一个人做自己的事情。或许我真的很偏激，反正也没什么人会想起我，毕竟各有各忙，不去打扰人是我能为他们做的。不断的对自己说，长大了，要学会自己面对一切，就算身边有家人朋友又怎样？他们并不能一直陪着你为你操心为你烦恼。

我想了很多很多的事情，从以前想到现在，从现在想到未来。真的很多想法想下就好，永远永远很难实行。我陷入‘静思’中吗？对亲情爱情友情理论当然知道不少，考试肯定拿高分，但现实中我承认我不及格。很失败，我知道。反反复复想着，最后只想到一首歌：不让我的眼泪陪我过夜。

有朋友说我是个敢爱敢恨的人，我不肯定。我的想法是既然选择了，无论怎样都要走下去。但是否在爱情中也如此呢？没有了感觉的感情还要继续吗？留个很大的问号给自己。

连续看了许多的连续剧，很清楚知道现实哪有剧中如此完美。

但我想到剧中的话，若那个人带给了你脸上的一个笑容，就画一笔，看看谁带给了你最多的’正’字，那个人就是你的真爱。我没试过，我觉得有点白痴。可是我想知道，我带给了你多少个‘正’字。

我常和别人说些自己鸡毛蒜皮的小事，就连我身边发生的小事我也很想说。其实，我是在分享，想让你知道今天的我过得好不好，心情怎么了。我所谓的抒发心情，也已经很久没人愿意听了，也没人愿意花时间在我的废话中。一直以来给我的支柱，在哪里了？？

前几天，我姐说她觉得很累。我听到时，我想哭。因为我也很累，真的很累。若眼泪真的能化作力量，让我走下去，我愿意流泪。若泪流得已没有价值了，就该收起无谓的眼泪。

并不是真的像梁文音所唱：哭过就好了。

如果不再需要，就没有了坚持的理由。

swallow

2011-05-25T00:51:00.000+08:00

sometimes when result can't meet its expectation,that's disappointment. yet when waiting is not worth at all for its result, that's hurt.

we always think from our own view,since when we can think on behalf of others? ya,i have grievance but who can be my listener? i have a lot of thinkings, but can u be my adviser? sometimes thing is still can't be settled after tear shed. try to put smiles on my face however failed. Blaming,complaining , nagging, twittering, thinking extremely and negatively , it is ME in your mind. i don't know how many tears dropped although i know crying is totally useless. I am not independent as you, I am trying hard,really.

Maybe is just everyone has his/her own thinking, so is it so called '性格不合' ?
nvm,just swallow it. it is not the first time. but i hope it will be the last time.
or maybe it is endless, it only will be ended with a full stop.

miss

2011-05-05T23:42:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone, i am so called emo now.
erm,not really also,may be is just bored by notes,notes, and notes.

Listening to Kenny G's music, I really miss those days in hall 8.
We put on mask together,you applied medicine cream on me when i was sunburnt.

ya,i miss it.

viva

2011-05-02T02:12:00.001+08:00

recently you are getting sick of everything happened around you,include friends, accommodation, work, health all that.. i know all these yet i really feel so helpless since i can't do anything for you.
However, when i said :“ 我的怀抱是你最温暖的家 ” , i meant it.

a very lou tou quote : everything will be fine and alright, just cross the bridge when you come to it.
ya,it is really very lou tou and maybe is not considered a nice comfort also. Things easy to say,but hard to get it real, right? i really do not know what else can i say and help you, but one thing for sure is that i will be always by your side, every moment every single second. <3

Don't think too much ~

i believe that whatever you face, it will strength you into a better man.=)

now,clear your mind and take your everyday happily. Life is short, do appreciate everything,every person,every moment together, and every every every single particle.

I also have to start my preparation for exam!! 1 week before my final, is seriously 'hug the buddha leg at the last minute'..

QUOTE from NIKE : JUST DO IT !!!!

happy bday~

2011-04-27T21:49:00.000+08:00

sushi, happy birthday ~~

I know you won't seeing this post,but anyway I wish u a very happy birthday and stay happy happy everyday.

Is quite a long time didn't meet you already,the last time was at the T1,right?

Maybe you forgot all the past time,however i remembered every moment together with you.

ya,i still owe you a so called 'love letter'.

kinda miss you actually =)

Hope to meet you again and happy birthday to my 7zai at home also. He is 3 years old i think. XD

我的朋友

2011-04-19T21:24:00.000+08:00

hi, 我的朋友。。
突然很想念你们，而你们在哪里？

人生中不同的阶段，会认识不一样，不同批的朋友。
但可曾发现，你最想念，最惦记的会是你中学时期的朋友？

现在每个人都在自己的道路上前进，是，截然不同的人生。
但是我觉得，无论怎样我们还是放在心中的朋友。
无需每天聊天，无需每天见面，　就只是偶尔找找对方，你们就会聊个没完没了。。

我不知道我有没有这样的朋友，但至少我自己觉得他们才是我真正的朋友。

很谢谢你们都一直在我身边，无论是聊八卦的还是分享喜怒哀乐的。
知道我在说着你们吗？
我知道你们在看喲　～
＝）

我想。。

2011-04-16T21:34:00.000+08:00

现在此刻的我，想要很多东西

我想，不顾学业的烦恼，好好的去玩一下。。
我想要去海边，我喜欢海，喜欢它的味道，喜欢海浪冲岸的声音。。

我想，无需顾虑到金钱的问题，奢侈的挥霍。。
我喜欢打扮得漂漂亮亮的，走在各式的商店里。。
换言之，就是shopping..

我想，减肥。。
真的要有很大的决心。。

我想，我的每个周末都能让我放松，开心。。
而不是像现在一样，窝在房里不知该干嘛。。

我想，变得不再依赖他。。
该学着自己打发时间。。生活中不该只有他。。

我想，回家当回家中的小公主。。
没有烦恼，睡饱，看戏，吃东西，上网，再睡觉。。

我想，好好的大哭一场。。
不为什么，就想把所有的不满委屈种种哭出来。。
希望哭过就好了。。

我想，打电话回家。。
但不行，我不想让他们听见我的哭声。。

我想，疯狂的做事情。。
以前总是别人眼中的独立乖巧女生，都不曾作过什么疯狂的事。。
我想我最疯狂的事大概是瞒着家人谈恋爱而已。。

我想，要一个和我分享心事的人。。
不用多，一个就可以了。。

我想，我想，我想，我想。。
我想，我应该要真正的长大了。。
地球不绕着你转。。

愿你，安息

2011-04-06T18:20:00.000+08:00

hi, 这几天的天气很热很闷,很容易让人觉得心烦易躁. 我,也是, 最讨厌热天气,弄得身体粘粘的.

昨天的一场大雨,算是洗脱了天的热气,但同样能洗走我的忧愁吗?

人生真的很无常, 真的没想到这种事情会发生在我周围.

生病死,而不是生老病死.

或许以后可能成为医师的我须看开这种过程,但至少不是现在,尤其是与我有感情的人.

我不怪其他人不理解我的心情，毕竟他们不是我。

连续好几晚都没好好地入睡,脑海里一直浮现出姐姐的讯息,你的声音,你的样子.. 你曾经说过的一句话: "张佩珊,你好像肥了耶 ." 到现在，我还记得当时的你。我真的很希望听到你再说我变胖了。现在下雨了，不知你是否已安定在另一个家了吗？家人总说等我回去后再说，叫我先读好书，但这句话却令我更伤心。我很想知道你怎样了，她怎样了，家里又发生了什么事。

生活还是要过，但我不想忘记你。

愿你，安息。。

哭。弱。强

2011-04-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

今天下午，才对我coursemates说我是个不想家的女儿。结果傍晚打电话回家，哭了。
听到姐姐和父母的声音，当他们问：过得怎样啊？眼泪就不由自主地流了下来。他们再问：做什么啊？我哭得更惨了。。

我不曾在家人面前掉过泪，这是第一次在电话中让他们听到我的哭泣声。我哭了，我把我的委屈，想念和孤单通过眼泪释放了出来。
面具卸下，我哭了，不是因为我懦弱，不是因为我爱哭，只是我坚强了很久，很累。。

昨晚，没了他的陪伴，我用电视剧填满我漫长的夜晚。。身边没有他，我辗转难眠，企图寻找他的温暖，最后却是眼泪陪我入睡。。没用到极点。。
不想打扰他，不想让我没心情的语言伤害他，结果刚才还是发生了。。
或许其他人不了解我的心情，但我希望他能明白，也体谅无聊多愁善感女生的心情。。虽然他不在我身边，只是请让我感觉他的存在，让他的声音陪着我，让他说的话带走我的忧愁，无奈他习惯用另外一种来表达他的一切。。

接受吧，难道你还试着改变些什么吗？
他不是你脑子里转的细胞，他永远不知道你到底想听什么话，到底想些什么。。尤其是你这种emo起来的想法，想象力丰富，又爱想些有的没的，在他心目中还是长不大的小孩脑袋。。

自从生活中出现了爱情，我变得爱哭。认识我的朋友大概也无法想象吧。。

mixed thinking??!!

2011-03-31T20:27:00.000+08:00

ya,just finished my bloody shit lab report. I found that I am totally a noob in drawing graph via excel, wasted my time to figure it out. :S

i have a pair of FRIENDS that were breaking up 1 month ago (maybe) ago. However,they found a new 1 respectively within such a short period. I am just wonder how can they do it and..they love their new lover?? I dun know..MAYBE..
I read her blog, i know they are ssooooo sweet and how he treat her well now. I am happy that he is moving on with a partner that he thinks is suitable for him. Nevertheless, a weird feeling when I see their pictures. She replace me?? I dun care..
chee how always say that : when you say you dun care,you care !!!

I felt so frustrated and worried these few days,is it because my left eyelid 'jump' so heavily few days ago? Many images flashed out in my mind whenever and wherever i am. I was just thinking will I kena accident tmr or the next second??? Heard that all your memories of life will flash out when the time you meet your death..then i keep thinking : who will be the one that i hope to see at that time?
My parents.. I cried when i thought of it.
ya, I never said ILY to anyone of my family members, but i do..
I dun know is it our CULTURE or what,we will feel so silly and funny to say ILY to family members??

ok well, my imagination is good enough to think of these kind of thingy.

My boyfiiiee will be going to Krabi for vacation,however i will just spend my time on studying.
Who ask i got test test test o... T.T

I gonna miss you so much.. Hope you have a safe and enjoyable trip !!!
and last thing, you better miss me much much much !!!
XD

给你

2011-03-24T20:39:00.000+08:00

清者自清，

无论你有多奸诈，到处中伤我，

但最终他们选择相信我。。

曾经我很羡慕你有那么多的朋友，参加那么多的聚会，

而我就只能躲在自己的房里，埋头在书本中。。

但现在，我知道你是失败者。。

你永远都输给我。。

是，无论在什么方面。。

慢慢的才知道。。

2011-03-08T23:08:00.000+08:00

01.慢慢的才知道,太在乎别人了往往会伤害自己。

02.慢慢的才知道,对自己好的人会随着时间的流逝越来越少。

03.慢慢的才知道,一个人要自己对自己好,因为真正关心你的人很少,有了事他们也不一定会在你身边。所以要自己照顾自己。

04.慢慢的才知道,真心对一个人好不一定有回报,而你忽略的人往往有可能是最重视你的。

05.慢慢的才知道,很多东西是可遇而不可求的,很多东西只能拥有一次。

06.慢慢的才知道,恋爱不一定是真心的,有可能是利益关系,有可能是攀比心理。

07.慢慢的才知道,不要和别人争论什么,因为那是没有结果的,无论谁对谁错。

08.慢慢的才知道,很多时候自己遇到不开心的事,千万不要渴望别人同情,大多数人会采取冷漠回敬的。那样会更让人家看不起。

09.慢慢的才知道,有很多东西是不属于你的,你使劲强求会遭天遣的。

10.慢慢的才知道,未必做每件事情都有意义,可是做的每件事情都觉得是一件回忆！

11.慢慢的才知道,人的性格可以差异到如此之大。

12.慢慢的才知道,许多曾经的人会变的让你认不出,但请留住回忆。

13.慢慢的才知道,从现在开始应该把握每一个你能把握的人,放弃你留不住的人,不要因为想留住个别人而失去一群人。

14.慢慢的才知道,自己一定在乎自己的自尊,但你的自尊在别人眼里根本不算什么。

15.慢慢的才知道,不要心情不好的时候对周围人发脾气,渴望他们谅解你,人家不是你的父母,现在你可以明白父母对自己多么重要。

16.慢慢的才知道,即便有人对情感看的无所谓,你一定要坚信,人与人之间的感情,有可能会令所有东西都无法超越的,但记住,只是有可能。

17.慢慢的才知道,原来现实如此的无奈。

18.慢慢的才知道,会遇到许多自己看不惯的人或事,但那与你无关,别人爱咋整随他便,别生不该生的气,不值。

19.慢慢的才知道,两个天天在一起的人不一定是朋友,有可能什么都不是。

20.慢慢的才知道,会遇到很多诱惑,无论别人怎么样,你是你,你有你的原则和底限。

21.慢慢的才知道,会有人很讨厌你或者和你过不去,但是他爱怎么样就怎么样,我们要大度,不和小人计较,但前提是你正确。

22.慢慢的才知道,很多人无法理解男女之间的朋友关系,在一起就一定是恋人,不是恋人就一定不能在一起。

23.慢慢的才知道,学习要刻苦,因为凭聪明就能应付考试科目的人是凤毛翎角。

24.慢慢的才知道,原来时间一空闲下来是那么无聊,丝毫没有中学的充实的感觉。

25.慢慢的才知道,手机是别人有事找你的时候用的,并不是为了交流感情的。

26.慢慢的才知道,可以不把所有人当朋友,但千万不能把一个人当敌人,至少可以当同学。

27.慢慢的才知道,玩你能玩的起的,玩不起的千万别玩,不然会输的什么都没有。

28.慢慢的才知道,快乐常常来自回忆,而痛苦常常来自于回忆与现实的差距。

29.慢慢的才知道,那些嘻哈打闹只是消遣而已,而过往的抽烟打架更是无知。

30.慢慢的才知道,有很多人的想法与做法你无法理解,或是根本不知道他在想什么,千万别在那揣摩或者瞎猜,那样会让自己累,既然人家要保持神秘感那就让人家保持去啊,自己又不是占卜师。

31.慢慢的才知道,不要把自己想的有多高,没有绝对性的胜利,也没有绝对性的失败。

32.慢慢的才知道,生活是有很多不公平的,你一定要正视,相信实力和群众的眼睛。

33.慢慢的才知道,兄弟情义有时候未必是想像的那么美好,只有自己真心付出,才有可能得到别人的真心对待。

34.慢慢的才知道,有的人不断的算计,到头还来是会输的很惨,所以应当保持一个平和的心！

35.慢慢的才知道,有的事情不是自己所愿意的,但是有的事情必须得去完成,那也是对自己的一段特训。

36.慢慢的才知道,原来两个人在一起或真或假,相处的时间还是占据着重要成份。

37.慢慢的才知道,现实根想法的差距,必须要随机应变,跟上生活的步伐！

38.慢慢的才知道,自己也在慢慢长大,不在是小孩子了,适应着每一件事的成长。

39.慢慢的才知道,不要把自己想的有多高,没有绝对性的胜利,也没有绝对性的失败。

40.慢慢的才知道，给人留一线日后好相见的真正意义,没有永远的敌人，只有永远的朋友,凡事不要做的太绝,事情的结局都是用嘴巴说出来的。

41.慢慢的才知道,不管玩的多好的朋友都有可能失去,但是我们还是要乐观面对,若是真的把他(她)当作自己的朋友就应该为他(她)祝福.遥望!只是做自己所做的。

42.慢慢的才知道,自己在慢慢接受社会了,所以也要慢慢学会适应。就这样，我慢慢的长大了…

我们装着很坚强，泪水往那心里流。不再回头，一个人走。。。。

25句有意思，但很难实践的话。。

2011-02-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

1 . 人长大了，就要开始接受，这个地球不是为了你而转。。
2 home is the place that unacceptable become acceptable.
3 在大学里，没有朋友只有学业，你是失败的。。
4 对自己有要求是应该的，可是过分的要求就成了苛刻。。
5 马来西亚无论有多糟，我们爱的是马来西亚的土地，而不是马来西亚的政治。。
6 长大了，才发觉父母真的老了。。
7 这世上，没人务必对你好，他们不帮你是没有错，他们没害你就应谢谢了。。
8 妒忌永远都不会停止，除非你死了。。
9 友谊其实也不是永远的，朋友是可以利用的最好工具。。
10 “我就是这样的人” 这句话，很不负责任。。
11 男生有时真的很脆弱，他们真的不如你们所要求的坚强。。
12 现在一直所追求的东西，可能到后来你会觉得自己很可笑。。
13 一个人可以很开心，但同时会很寂寞。。
14 考试若考到40分，你会开心还是伤心呢？你应伤心你只考了40 分，还是庆幸你考到了40 分？
15 从来不做承诺，就是不想让别人失望。。
16 有女人的世界，永远就有勾心斗角。。
17 有时候在异性面前，会觉得自在得多。。
18 上天并不会只眷顾你，它给了你一些，就会让你得不到一些。。
19 偶像剧中的剧情，真的会在现实中发生吗？几率应该是- 难以推算。。
20 两个人在一起就了，可能慢慢的从喜欢变成了习惯。。其实，习惯对方的存在也是一种爱。。
21 信任只存在于两个愿意承受随时被背叛的人身上。。
22 人总爱回想自己风光的时期。。
23 女生是可爱的动物，只要你不得罪她。。
24 别人拥有的天分，是你不能妒忌的。。
25 爱情里，在乎的是你愿不愿意与现在不完美的他/她永远到老。。

p/s : 回来现实吧。。读书。。

歌。回忆

2011-02-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

每一首歌，带来不同的回忆。。
虽然那些都是旧的歌曲，但不同的画面一直在我脑海里。。

right here waiting- 与宏的歌曲，在ktv里哭了。。
小酒窝- 与俊杰在foc的‘成名曲’。。
残酷- 宏在车上唱这首歌的样子。。
风一样的男子- 当初杰传给我的歌。。
小情歌- 躺在他胸口听他唱的歌。。
明白- 我们的毕业歌。。
宝贝 - 我与杰的歌，他好久没唱了。。
着迷 - 以前听了就想跳舞的歌。。
someone to love -阿肥传给我说很好听，结果自己也喜欢上了。。
谢谢你- 以前华文学会生活营的手语歌。。
熬夜- 上中学第一次参加学长营的手语歌。。
疼你的责任- 觉得这首歌蛮适合现在的我们。。
家后- 看了‘钱不够用2 ’后学的歌，很感动。。也是杰学的第一首福建歌。。
裙下之臣- 杰说就像他。。
非你莫属- 宏第一次唱给我听的歌，当初就只是开玩笑，怎知他真的来到我面前唱。。
爱我的资格- 与莹合唱，得冠军。。
擦身而过- 以前khen eng 很喜欢而且很贴切他的歌。。
你的名字我的姓氏-大姐结婚用的歌，很喜欢。。
感激遇到你- 歌词简单，但就觉得很幸福，与珊在考试期间还一直听的歌。。
我爱他- ‘下一站幸福’的主题曲，歌词感伤，总会联想到剧里的情节。。

还有很多很多的歌，有时偶尔的听听，埋藏已久的回忆又回来了。。
其实现在的我，并不是不想面对现在的生活，但我就是很想念以前。。
我知道人总是要向前走，不断地走。。
但偶尔回回头，那些回忆值得你会心一笑。。

好歌+心情

2011-01-29T21:52:00.000+08:00

分享‘疼你的责任 ’，
虽然这是蛮久以前的歌，但今天偶然的看了它的mv ，很喜欢。
原因很简单，第一是因为许纬倫。
其实她的不幸真的很可惜，我很想念她那天使的笑容。。
第二，我喜欢mv 里的情节。会是这样吗？
我时常会想像我在中国的那两年，即害怕又期待。

朋友时常会问起某些问题，我不知道。。
我会很想念他，但距离就是个问题。

郭静的‘没一天都不同’
觉得歌词有意思，歌声清脆，但mv 无聊了点。
我就喜欢听着这类的歌，脑里就闪过了许多的画面，想象不同的情景，心里的感触逐渐的增加。

朋友面前的我，我不知道那是不是真正的我。。
但我想说，其实我很平凡。。

讨厌的家伙。。

2011-01-26T15:41:00.000+08:00

我知道你很为难，
但种种原因，种种因素，
你说我偏见，小心眼，心胸狭窄也无所谓，
我就是不喜欢他们。。

若没什么特殊的理由，我不想看到他们，
根本就不同路，之前对他们的好感完全消失，
增加的就只有厌烦。。

真的想到他们面爆粗。。
他妈的，不是每个人都像你们酱烂睡，
几点了，你们还在讲话，你们不需要睡眠，别人不用睡啊？
一方就处处顾及你们感受，你们就不用顾别人的感受啊？
没有一次好睡过！！！
一人退一步？？
我最好退得远远的，不碰到最好。

他的柔情。。

2011-01-19T11:06:00.000+08:00

昨天我回到了新加坡。
很难得的是我爸竟然跟我到巴士站，还留下来陪我等巴士。
在我印象中，这是第一次。

他的嘴中一直在唠叨着，不停地说着。
我显然不耐烦他的唠叨，毕竟这不是我第一次出门。
我明白，我了解，他在担心我。

坐在巴士上，想了想，那是第一次我感受到爸爸表面的关怀。。

在我家庭里，每一个都是刀子嘴，豆腐心。
铁定是爸爸的遗传。
父母年纪大了，慢慢地出现了老态。
他们不再像以前一样，管束着我们，约制着我们。
慢慢地放手，让我们去飞。。

2011 New Year Countdown trip

2011-01-03T18:24:00.001+08:00

I said : ' dear, I wish to go for holiday.'

Because of these words,we went to Sepang Golden Palm Tree Resort for our 2011 new year celebration.
There is a long long time we never get rid of the city,stress from studies or works..
Yes, just we two,our own sweet trip.
=)

A lot of pictures are taken,and of course his only model will be me !! so he said, this trip is my own photo-taking album.

life is not a race..

he is my photographer all the while~

yee kiat & pei tsan

I like the cute face he has..

I wish to follow wherever you go..

Can't be denied that the scenery there is quite beautiful and peaceful~ we love the sunshine over there, the border-less sea view...

One more thing that he loves most will be the bed~~ Think he is willing to spend his RM1000++ for sleeping on the bed only..

We loves the peace over there.

How nice if we do not have to spend any money on it.
How nice if we have more time to rest there.
How nice if the time won't pass.
XD

Holding our hands until the end of life..

Thanks dear and ILY..

POST EXAM + X'MAS celebrations!!

2010-12-27T15:28:00.001+08:00

Haloooo everyone !!! How was your X'mas celebration??

I had my X'mas and also post exam celebrations together !!!

just from 23th to 25th, I enjoyed the days with him.

After that terrible micro exam, all coursemates have their own plans.

then bo bian lo.. i went back my own room and wait for the night !!

I cleaned my room finally~~ i was so happy that my desk is finally clean. =)

The night came, and we went ORCHARD, which is known as a place for 'X'mas Photo-Taking'.. >.<

As usual, we took photos around the big X'mas tree,but it is quite similiar as last year one.

Nothing much special leh..

inside the X'mas tree..

深情的眼神~~

why ur face is like so shy??!!

NOTHING
TO SEE !!!

Yup,we ate Bak Kut Teh as our dinner. It is first time I eat BKT in sg eh..

is quite nice actually,and he ate all the fats on the meat!!! i just eat those ribs.

quite delicious !!

Fei Si Ni.. XD

But we had fun ~~

FUN FUN FUN !!!

so soft neh !!! wish to buy but my bed is full of toys now..

It is so cutieeee~~

The next day, I was shopping alone while he was working.
I enjoyed shopping alone actually, and I bought lots of things for my family and him..
the end,I did not buy anything for myself.

Bought all these to my nieces and nephew!!

During these few days, we ate a lot of nice foods !!!

Promoting my slipper lobster pasta~~~

everytime also this kind of face.. = .=''

hehe. spare ribs and shrimp!!

FATTENING DAYS

My X'mas gift.. thanks dear =p

Anyway, thank you very much to YOU !!!

**HAPPY**

finish exam for yr2 sem1

2010-12-23T16:44:00.000+08:00

today is 23rd Dec, finally i am done with my exam..
so now free to do anything !!! first thing is to come back for blogging..

For this sem, my interest in tcm is getting deeper,especially the chinese medicine,
I do not know is it really interesting or I just like those memorizing module..
The preparation for exam of this sem : slack !!!!
I never be so slacked before my exam..
i never be so relaxed...
Don't know why leh...not because of i am well-prepared, not because of the modules are too easy..
is just somehow do not have to mood to mug,to chiong..
is it considered 看开了，豁达了？？

I wonder how will be my result for this sem..I hope that it is satisfied and at least can pull my CGPA up up up !!!
I totally wasted my chance in my first sem, only thing that i can do is just try to pull other sems' GPA as much as i can !!!! but promised that no stress pressed on me..

just finished my microbiology exam.. thinking that cross my mind is just : DIE HARD !!
is not that i never read the notes,just the paper come out with those terrible questions which are can't be found in notes !!!!
I hate lecturers who called Peter, BS107 last time also like that..too much of similarities between 107 and 202..

lecturers called Peter ;

lecture notes sucks ;

lectures hypnosis enough ;

exam at the last day ;

all multiple answers ;

questions are so difficult ;

But I hope that the result wont be same !!!!!!!!!!
Is it everyone who sat for micro also die like me???

Please please, i hope luck is surrounding me..

Please bless me..

thanks to my dear is always by my side throughout my exam period,including bringing tong yun and supper for me..
looking forward to our holidays ~~
=)

sharing~

2010-11-27T09:42:00.000+08:00

There is 20 days i was away from my blog. Is just anyhow lazy to type.

share something to you.
These things distracted me from studying although my final exam is just around the corner.
I was wasting my time on doing nothing while the whole world is working hard.

If you can't see the turning lady,then go to this link.
http://laughinacorner.tumblr.com/post/812191390/if-you-see-this-lady-turning-clockwise-you-are

If you see this lady turning clockwise you are using your right brain.
If you see her turning anti-clockwise, you are using your left brain.
Some people can see her turning both ways, but most people see her only one way.

See if you can make her go one way and then the other by shifting the brain’s current.
If you can switch between seeing her turn either way at will without shifting your gaze, your IQ is above 160 … which is almost at genius level!

Thanks to that noisy Cecelia for this distraction!!!!

Other than that, I keep youtube-ing looking for 'ice kacang puppy love' videos..

I watched this movie before and i seriously like this video so much.

The reason is just so easy, Because it is made in Malaysia and i like the feeling in the movie..

I like the kampung scene which is exactly so familiar to me.

I grow up in the small town, but i feel lucky that i grow up in such a small town..

Do you know that ah-niu and Lee Xin Jie are grow up in a small town also??

I miss my young time,I miss my hometown friends.

There is seriously a long long time i never meet with them..

I like the song so much although it is an old song.

当天空还是蓝的，当世界还是简单的时候，我们的歌，我们的初恋。。

tired des...

2010-11-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

last thursday, i rushed back malaysia right after my anatomy CA for my only 3 days holidays..
everyone was going back hometown during recess week but i wasn't because of that terrible tcm diagnosis final exam paper followed by physio n anatomy CAs...
i do really feel very very tired on studying..i m sick of sg stressful lifestyle..or may be i m making a difference on studying this double degree..
sometimes i suspect on my determination and confidence in doing this course..

i did not really relax when i went back since actually most of the time i spent on traveling...
from sg to kl,from kl to kp,from kp to sban,from sban to sg again...
did not shopping at all..1 thing that i did is cutting my hair...
now i m back to short hair appearance...i do not know that whether i like it or not..just wish to change a new look or may be a new mood..hope this hairstyle may bring me new energy and luck..

new look~~

just now i really can feel the 'stuck' in custom..all people are rushing,and they showed malaysian pattern as in pushing each other and never queue up when boarding bus or waiting taxi...

p/s : is seriously beli beli tired now....off to rest...and i missing my boy..he is still in malaysia...

truth of love

2010-10-30T02:17:00.002+08:00

yes,i am still here for now..

hmm..what am i seriously doing now??

is studying or slacking?? whatever..but i read something online..is not bad but a bit long..

take your time to read it (if u have much free time)..

May be these are the truth of love..

Avoid three forms of romantic love

'dead ends'

Use sex for emotional intimacy,not reassurance.

Use love to create and maintain happy,loving relationship.

Are You Confused About Being Angry with the One You Love?

Do You Want to Take the Fear Out of Being Close?

Mary and John's story is familiar.
"I hate you -- get out of my life!" she said when he finally arrived.

She was furious about his coming home two hours late to a
cold dinner on the table. The candles had burned out, and
she ate alone. This was not the first time he stood her up.
You'd think she would learn!
(You'd think he would learn!)

She loved him so much she was enraged, and told him she wanted
a divorce and for him to leave and never come back! Obviously to John,
Mary no longer loved him, so he left, hurt and upset, and spent the night
elsewhere. Mary was even more hurt from his staying away all night.

Of course, she loved him very much. She understood that.
But how could she love him and hate him at the same
time? She wondered, and he wondered, and with no clear
answer they drifted apart.

She didn't understand that love is more than a feeling of pleasure. Love is also an emotional
investment. Mary's anger meant that John was very important to her. Otherwise she
wouldn't care at all. Anger is an inevitable feeling in any relationship . . .
but you have to know how to use the energy to turn upsets into opportunities.

The truth is, many people are confused about how to have a close relationship that works. . . .
. . .and no wonder. . .

There are thousands of families out there that model for their kids how not to be loving
with their husband or wife. They may want to know the "Secret of loving
relationships ". . . but all they can do is the best they learned from their own parents
about how to get along with others. . . .

Love Means Treating Others Well

How to have harmonious relationships is not a mystery. The first meaning of love has to do
with how you treat the person you care about. Creating a close, loving relationship is not
actually so difficult to understand! How to do it can be learned. In fact, it has to be learned
by everyone who knows how to sanctify their relationship rather than pollute it.

-Anyone can do it, and there is no need to sit at the feet of a "guru," spend thousands
   on training workshops, or give up and settle for doing without the love you want.. .
- It all comes down to the simple, basic rules of listening, understanding, and
   empathizing with what is important to your loved one. Once you understand how
   treating others in loving ways works, your relationship cannot fail because of you.

Now, here's a book about the meaning of love that will show you the foundation on which to
build a deeply caring relationship . . .

The Meaning of Love is based on the proven principles and methods that are currently being
used by those couples who succeed in their relationships. The other 55% who fail in their
marriages use the methods that poison and destroy their relationships.

Love Means Pleasure
When couples treat each other well, they delight in each other, and love means

     pleasure, deep emotional enjoyment of each other.

-Sexual pleasure is only that, and does not create emotional intimacy. You
   don't have to settle for temporary enjoyment as all you can have. You can go
   beyond to find the emotional satisfaction that you've always wanted.

- Don't waste time thinking sex is the answer. Learn from what others know . . .
   that acceptance and affirmation of oneself and others creates the emotional delight
   that can be expressed with sex.

The experts who understand what works have one thing in common. . . they know that
couples who succeed have the same problems as couples who fail. . .
the difference is in how they deal with their problems when they are not enjoying each other.

Does your husband or wife (or significant other):
Criticize you about little things?
Seem less interested in you than before?
Put you off when it comes to physical contact?

   Here is a manual that tells you exactly what others do to get the positive results that you
   want in your own relationship.
   You don't have to figure it all out on your own from scratch.

   You have a description of what really works and what doesn't when it comes to close,
   emotionally satisfying, loving relationships.

Love Means Caring: Emotional Investment
Sharing life activities and personal information creates intimacy and

emotional connection.

Over time, caring grows and your emotional investment in the other deepens, even when
all is not "rosy" and pleasurable. We love because we find our emotional match in the other
person, that which makes us feel more whole. We have found a "soul mate" and gradually
become more and more emotionally and spiritually connected to the other person.

Fear is what gets in the way of caring. But you don't have to suffer in silence.

Using the principles in this book, you can reverse what may seem irreversible,
including:

Fear of asking for what you want.
Finding yourself reacting defensively when you don't want to do so.
Being critical of your partner or yourself.
Attempting to control your partner.
Fear of being rejected.

You Can Make Your Relationship More Loving --
Today

The Meaning of Love explains how love based on need fulfillment usually

has serious limitations, but identifies the one need we should continue to nurture. . .

p/s : thanks for spending your time to read. back to mugging... ^^

nag~~

2010-10-26T15:01:00.000+08:00

after my TCM diagnostic final exam, we celebrated our 'half day' recess week by watching movie 'The Town' and eating Crystal Jade Xiao Loong Bao !!!
with lefties,i feel a feeling of ascription and we had fun together no matter in class or wherever..
because of lefties, my uni life is not as miscerable by only studying studying and studying..

but now,i have to continue my mugging every week,everyday,every hour or even every second....
more and more CAs are waiting for me..
but after the tcm final,i have no mood to study at all...
physio,anatomy...i know they are interesting topics...however,is just that..
LAZY..

started traditional chinese Medicine module..the only one thing that i want to do is..
ENHANCE my MEMORY ABILITY !!!!!!!!!
i have lots of things to be memorized however my little brain just cant absorb too much..
Sometimes,i blame myself that why I am not a genius???!!!!!!!!

However, everything happen on its reason..
i know the reason of the problems,then of course i have to solve it...

ok..i have to STUDY!!!!

p/s: lazy to upload pics here..time is precious..

血虚天。。

2010-10-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

在这时间，我该睡觉了。。这几天，随着月经来潮，终于能清楚了解何谓血虚了。。今天还去做了blood test ，真的是血虚到不行。。

这几天沉闷又无聊又情绪低落的心情，我都一直归功于我那失调的荷尔蒙，一直相信月经完了就会‘雨过天晴’了。。真的会这样吗？？

连续几天都待在小房间里，面对书本资料，都快疯了。。
好想一把火烧了它们。。一直上fb stalk 别人，发现许多东西，但还是无聊。。

今晚，我唯一体会到的心情是失望。。对什么失望呢？是对期待的失望。。
真的是事情期望越高，换来的失望越大。。有时候真的就别期望，可能它就会出现呢。。

recess week 了，没上课，朋友都回家了。。剩下可怜的我，拼命地为中诊final奋斗。。
突然觉得很寂寞，孤独。。真的好想找个人陪陪。。
就真的觉得世界剩下我一人。。

失望了，依旧期待；
泪流了，于事无补；
心淡了，剩下冷漠；
心寒了，不再奢望。

我的小公主，快快振作起来。。

dear god..

2010-10-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

what happen to me these few days??
words that keep appear in my mind is just emo,emo and emo..

is it because of period??? my damn estrogen and progesterone are doing a very good job now????
is it because of exam?? my stress is like a silent killer,killing me slowly without my consciousness??
is it because of my stupid brain??? i just cant key-in all the notes into my tiny little pity brain????
is it because of homesick??? i just feel like going back msia and dun care whatever over here??
is it because of the feeling of loneliness??? staying in single room for the whole day is actually damn damn sienz..somemore i never play whatever games!!!!
is it because of slacking?? the feeling slack on fb-ing keep me feel guity but nothing i can do!!!! i tried shut down my com and finally end up sleep on bed!!! wth!!!!!!!

dear god,please please please let me get things done and get them prepared!!!!
i know that actually i have lots of time to complete my target,just do not let me waste any precious time,k??
time doesn't flow like a river,it flows VERY FAST...

dear god,please please please bless me....

101010

2010-10-14T00:49:00.000+08:00

today is 141010,but i wanna post a post about my 101010..

is a nice date to the whole world,and also us,since that day was our 1st anniversary..^^

i prepared his gift few weeks ago,is a hand-made small booklet and a glass piano..

i spent much time on the hand-made but is seriously i have to admit that i do not have any artistic cells in my body but i am creative..hehe..

finally,101010 reached and i received gift from him also..SK necklace..maybe you would say SK again???haha..but i like the necklace so much!!!! muackzzz!!!!

大心包小心~~

after we went to his colleague's wedding kenduri then we went to vivo city lo~~

A very very surprise thing is that he bought me a bunny which is from 'built a bear'..

i never go in before and we built our own bear there..

vava~~

we put cotton inside the bear,bathed him, chose costume to him and also did his birth cert!!!!

'vivalive' is born!!!! (he said that he prefers son wo..)

hehe

daddy bring u go gai gai~~

a big yoshi for him as he always think of..

almost as big as my baby pooh.. XD

we took a lot of pictures on the roof top of vivocity~~ we played with yoshi and vava..

vava's shoes

yoshi n vava hugging~~

vava riding yoshi!!

although our celebration is quite childish but is sweet..

i do really like the feeling to be together with you and i appreciate all the time with you..

there is 1 year already that we have been going through,many ups and downs shared,

many feelings tried and one thing that i found that is getting more and more in myself is

LOVE

towards you

happy 1st anniversary,dear

爱一直都存在。单车

2010-10-04T22:23:00.001+08:00

i seldom listen to her songs..but i like this song and the lyrics..

because of my coursemate,he likes her very very much..

i feel that her songs quite not bad also..

another song,i feel the lyrics quite meaningful also..made me homesick..

there is a time i din call back home..

so sorry...

study . slack

2010-10-03T23:52:00.000+08:00

i hate monday..i hate friday..i hate weekdays..

just that i have to go to school everyday for 830 classes until evening...

school is entering 6th week,more CAs are coming and of course my tcm final..

stressed stressed stressed...

no matter the stress is come from where,I just feel stressed..

i thought i can study more during weekends..

but in fact i did not do so..

i just slack slack slack...

fb-ing,drama-ing, sleeping and just doing nothing productive..

just do not feel like studying..how come a???

who can help me in motivating me to study and increase my memorizing skill?????

in uni,i started to suspect myself about the studying skill and the efficiency..

努力真的会换来结果吗？

但我知道，不努力就真的没结果。。

he always say that, studying is not only for exam,or can say that the exam result is actually does not mean everything..

for students studying tcm,should earn your knowledge to save people's life,but is not keep competing with each other..

i cant agree more on this,but the reality is still have not get used of this 'principle'..

give me more time,

i will apply principle in one day..

MAF - m'sian night - CA

2010-09-28T18:26:00.000+08:00

mid -autumn festival of this year is quite different from last year one since last year i had my training on that day..

However, this year, I went to mid-autumn festival that organized by NTU chinese club..

met my OG and had fun with them~~

somemore, I have him who purposely came to my place right after his work to accompany me in this MAF..

we did something 'romantic' in Yunnan Garden of NTU~~ there is a long time since I played lantern..and this lantern is round in shape..haha..

ate many mooncakes this year la..still have somemore in my room..will finish it ASAp.. XD

thanks~~

yea, last saturday i spent my whole night time in attending Malaysian Night.

took quite a lot of pictures and continued 2nd round with my OG -LEVA..

feel that this year punya freshies is like different from previous year..don't know how to explain...

hmm, cant really compare malaysian night of this year with the merdeka night of last year..

i was so pretty impressed by last year sketch and also the whole night programme flow..

but for this year,no comment.....

actually I don't feel like going at the first stage since monday will have my CA which require my brain 'memory cells' a lot!!!

whereas I just unable to 'scan' all the things into my tiny little brain!!!!

in the end,I just gave myself a poor reason of I don't wan to miss any fun part of it and support MSA,then i just went.....aikz..

he came back to have a look on the sketch..

my OG LEVA~~

LEVA leng lui-sss XD

feel so happy to see he is alright and fine after the bad thing happened..

will be always support you ya!!

erm..i just had my tcm CA yesterday..what can i say is just ' DIE HARD ' la..

but chun huat told me that there is 5 stages of grief..i think i reached the highest stage which is just accept!!

bo bian lo..

study hard,k??

No one is supposed to help you when you are in your own problem of laziness!!!

i don't like myself of being too stressed but don't be too slack also la!!!

castle 。 spring

2010-09-25T09:43:00.000+08:00

he said that,

our love supposed is like building castle, it will be getting higher and stronger when the time goes...

our love is not like a spring, once you let go the force,it will be going back to its starting position..

yes, i cant agree more about this..

more force that you enforce on spring,it of course will be stretched longer and longer..

once you remove the force,it will be go back to the starting,is like nothing happen before..

and i believe that our love is really like a castle,although the process is slow and hard..

but it will be not be ruined so easily by wind or water..

as long as you protect it carefully and nicely..

recently quite stressed since studies load burdened on my shoulder..

life is all about stress,vexation and dilemma...

dilemma ---> vexation ----> stress

but do not forget

STRESSED ---->DESSERTS

it is so happen or i rather to believe that it is the purpose for the God ( people) to create this word..

P/s : go back to mug already.I should mug harder since activities are waiting for me~~

be grateful..

2010-09-20T00:11:00.000+08:00

now is 11.54pm of 19th sept...
my second sister is gonna give birth her baby girl soon...
wish them blessed..
=)

after my birthday, i just continue my busy uni life at ntu...
attending all the classes,lab and tutorials,
no matter how tired I am or whether I am willing to do so or not..
I just do not wish to skip any classes,somehow I may feel guilty if i skip any..
study,study and study..
the uni life is like nothing else except studies????
no..there are still many enjoyable things ,
such as gathering,dinner, hanging around with coursemates
although such activities assuming my study time,
but i always spend my time on them..

last but not least,of course is my 'third major'..
he is just willing to accompany me no matter how tired he is..
come to me all the way just after his working..rush here rush there..
since i just want to stay in my own room..
sometimes i do really feel sorry to make him so tiring..
seriously touched by his effort..

I know that I made you in dilemma sometimes,
I know that I have to be more mature after my 21st birthday,
I know that you are putting great effort in our relationship,
I know that you are getting tired from your working..

whenever you feel tired,can just lie and rest on my shoulder,

because nothing that I know besides that you are my boyfriend,

my partner and

My love..

Pei tsan,

you should always tell yourself that

" be grateful of whatever you having now"

女人。另一个女人

2010-09-16T11:34:00.000+08:00

突然发觉，原来女人的眼中是真的不能容下另一个女人。。

我和她的他都已经是过去式，干嘛还需做些不必要的事。。
小器，无聊，看不开？？
身为女生，我明白她的想法。。
就只是怕看到别人的最新消息，然后又不知想到什么了。。

许多事情，还是眼不见为净。。
既然现在生活得好好的，
就相信现在所拥有的，珍惜所拥有的。。
其他人已经不重要，
只要自己认为，自己已经找到最好的了。。
我不后悔放弃他，因为我觉得想要找的，想依靠的，最棒的，
就在我身边。。

♥

♥ 21st bday ♥

2010-09-13T00:37:00.000+08:00

yeah~~~

very very thanks to all the celebrations and also wishes..

i replied to all the wishes until fb blocked me from commenting!!!

how sad is it!! luckily is just for 1 day..

on my bday,he gave me the present at 12am..

is an ESPIRIT watch!!!!!

this watch appears at the right time since my previous watch spoilt already..

however he bought the watch 3 months ago!!! he can predict that i need a watch on my bday??

hehe

moreover,he gave me 3 SK pearl bracelets,they are so so beautiful and charming~~

before we going out,must take pictures first de ma..hehe

nice???

he brought me go to 板长寿司to have our dinner..

food there is damn nice and we really enjoyed it so much!!!

we took many many nice pictures leh..

and i bought a pair of Anna Nucci heals to myself,but is persuaded by him punya la..

He did not bought me a cake but a COLD ROCKS birthday ice-cream to me..

yummy~~

is a really nice nice memories to us!!!

I love the gift~~~

I love the food!!!

I love the feeling~~~

I love the celebrations!!!

I love the pictures~~~

I love the memories!!!!!!!!

and of course

I LOVE U

~~♥ XOXO ♥~~

random shots..

2010-09-10T20:40:00.000+08:00

random stuffs random shots!!!!!!!!!

recently I am using photofiltre to edit my pictures,but i am just editing its brightness and add some text..

so addicted to it as it is more simple than that of photoshop.. hehe

after editing,the pictures look so attractive,right???

I just love mugging!!!

noob look!!!

hugzz~~~

my pre-bday celebration

2010-09-10T02:38:00.000+08:00

friday is hari raya,saturday is my bday~~~

since there is no sch tomorrow and many friends will be going back home also,so they planned bday celebration to me today..

yeah~~ I went through 2 bday celebrations today..

during daytime, my lovely LEFTIES (classmates who always sit at the left side in the classroom) celebrated my bday during our break time!!!

i am so surprised that chee how appeared and with a cake and balloons bought by him.. since he lied on me that he overslept and will not attend the class..

colourful balloons with their wishes wrote on it is so adorable and attractive..

we go da bao our lunch at canA,there was so many people keep looking at me and my BALLOONS!!!

and of course many people that i do not know wished me also.. ^^

BALLOONS~~~

when the next lecture started,whole class sing bday song to me also,they thought today is my actual bday..anyway,very very thanks la!!!!!

lefties XD

2nd, it was 11pm and i was preparing to go yamcha with choon chieh them since promised ady..then so sudden that i received so much bday msg at the same time..while i was busy replying their msg (want to tell them that my bday is on 911 la) , somemone knocked my door and i was scared by chee peng... @.@

the corridor was full of friends and they were celebrating my early bday also..most of them came from new halls which are quite far from my room..

after that,of course was the ah fang yamcha session~~~

so regrettable that we did not take pictures just now... =(

I was surprised by them and there is only thank you and thank you again to them..

You all seriously are so lovely~~

NTU is full of fun with you all around me..

**XOXO**

miss u

2010-09-08T18:54:00.000+08:00

there is only few days not to meet u..

i gonna study,u gonna work..

i know that the challenge will be getting harsh when i go to China..

sometimes is just do not wish to disturb u..

sometimes is just afraid of telling u about my feeling..

sometimes is just let lonely killing me slowly..

sometimes is just burying my grievance..

sometimes is just trying to enjoy the uni life without u..

sometimes is just wish that u are right here beside me..

anyway, i just wan to tell u that..

I MISS U..

p/s : love u dear..

MSA FOC

2010-09-06T19:23:00.000+08:00

the end of FOC but is just a beginning of another new uni life chapter..

actually i learnt quite a lot of things throughout the preparation of FOC and also this whole year..

although Malaysia now is in a mess but Malaysians who are studying in overseas still willing to help Malaysians..there is only one reason for it,that is we are sharing the same identity no matter which states are we come from..

MSA is a place that let those Malaysians to feel warm and also a way to release their homesick.Besides can make more and more friends,I believe that they felt more attributive in MSA FOC..

Just hope that they can help their juniors as what seniors helped them at the starting point of their NTU life..

Thanks to everyone that made effort to FOC and made a success!!!!

Other than that,I spent my first whole week in FOC preparation and i neglect my studies.. I am left much much much more behind now!!!!!! Anyway,I should believe in myself that I can make it!!!

"The more hardship that i endured,

the stronger I am !!! "

p/s : miss him..

keep the FOC spirit on!!!

2010-09-04T02:09:00.000+08:00

yes..it is 2am now...

it was the end of FOC day 1 and of course i just get back to my room..

although is a long long night with a lot of programmes were going on,but i believe that we were enjoying the process..

we cheers a lot,we have our fun..

feel quite comfort when see most of the freshies and also seniors get 'higher' and 'higher' when the time goes on..

tomorrow(today) have to wake up at 6am,means that just left 4 sleeping hours!!!!!!!!!

Amazing race will be going on which we will bring freshies go out of NTU and play station games that set around the Singapore...

ya...have to walk a long long distance....

whatever it is,just keep the FOC spirit on....we work hard for almost 1 year is just for these 3 days camp..

let's jia you!!!!!!!!

p/s : feeling now is quite happy although i m physically tired now..

thinkings now!!

2010-09-03T00:48:00.000+08:00

it's 12.39am now...
but I am still awake since I just came back to my room and of course have to bathe bla bla..
today will be the day 1 of FOC..ya..very very soon the FOC will be over also..
be frankly,i do not really enjoy this FOC?? may be just because it is during school week which I have a lot a lot of classes since first week...
during this whole week,i totally neglect my studies and the most important one is the tcm module..the teacher teach so pretty fast but i totahave no time to revise the notes!!!! other than that, I have no any idea for my microbiology and also anatomy modules....
hope that i can catch them back ASAP!!!!!!!
ya,sure can one~~~as long as i have the determination to study and answer the curiousity...

hungry now leh...but i have brushed my teeth..sienzz sia......

wait my hair getting dry then i will sleep lo~~~
have to keep and recharge my energy for later FOC...
it's gonna be a LONG LONG night~~~

jia you everyone!!!!!
i know that everyone is doing a great job which is considered some 'contributions' to our country,Malaysia!!!
remember, we are malaysians which study in singapore~~

and last thing...
i miss him..

开始的路程

2010-08-31T18:18:00.000+08:00

昨天是我的year 2 sem 1 的第一天。。

由于要帮忙FOC 的东西，忙到~~~~

上了中医诊断学的第一堂课，我发觉我好像开学了一个月。。

度日如年啊~~

每天晚上都有活动啦，会议啦~~

拖~~拖~~~~~再拖~~~~~

回到那该死远的房间，都已经是另一天的凌晨啦！！！

还要再处理文件记录等等，根本没时间读我的notes 啊..

老师还要每天上课时发问问题，一直祈求保佑：不要叫到我的名字。。

简直是快疯了，快傻了~~

但是想想，这一整个星期虽然都很忙，

但真的就这一个星期。。一年一次的FOC。。

猜想之后，就该不会那么忙了啦。。

虽然很累，就当它是个磨炼。。

虽然房间很远，就当它是个减肥运动。。

虽然没时间读书，就上课专心点。。

虽然没时间陪男友，就当作是小别一下咯。。

需感谢上天，给了我磨炼的考验。。

无论怎样，考验总会过去。。

最后留下的就是你的收获了。。

“　珮珊，

加油！！！！！！

我知道你可以的！！！

我知道你会越变越强！！！！

我知道你身边还有支持你的人！！！

我知道。。。

因为你是张珮珊！！！！　　”

感恩

2010-08-28T16:28:00.000+08:00

重复想着这几句话：

认为自己是不值的，是最大的欺骗。。

认为自己是多余的，是最大的侮辱。。

认为自己是不够好，是最大的谎言。。

人生第一守则就是感恩。。

人总是想自己不能拥有的，而不感恩自己拥有的。。

我也是这样子。。

所有的女生：你们是最漂亮的。。

所有的男生：你们是最棒的。。

相信自己。。

I m a fat girl!!!

2010-08-25T20:42:00.000+08:00

ARGH~~~

I am a fat girl!!!!!!!!!!

actually I do really think of diet de leh..

but then u know..back to my hometown,a lot of food is waiting for me...my family also keep offering me food........

somemore now is Ramadhan month,got the 'pasar malam'..

oh my god!!!!!!!!!!!

how hard i persuade myself,but i just cant bear with my desire to eat........

please god!!!!!!! please stop me from eating....please make all the food disappear in front of me now!!!!!

tiew pei tsan, u r pig a??? keep eating!!!!!!!!!!

beh tahan!!!!!!!!!

want become like that!!!!! jia you a!!!!!!!!!!!!

update from me

2010-08-23T20:31:00.000+08:00

3 days I disappeared from my blog lo~~

since I am in Msia now!!! There is still 1 more week holiday from my new sem start..

better refresh my mind and turn myself into a new leaf!!! hehe

recent updates!!!!

finally the FOC grouping list is finalized..if there is any changes again,just deal with it the day before FOC ba~~

actually quite looking forward to sch start although the first week will be damn busy..

my request to get single room is successful!!!!! Yeah yeah~~ previously,I dislike hall4, i dislike my first and second choice is not acceded, i dislike the dirty environment, i dislike the far distance from my sch, i dislike there is no air-cond, i dislike the double room..actually i should thanks for my blessing already,since many of my friends still haven't get their halls..

today,saw a picture which is took long time ago..during MSD,should be in january or feb..I found that actually he is so cute~~haha

what a face!!!!!!

1 more thing,finally they announced that they are in a relationship..erm...actually quite happy to them also la..since is really the end between us..hope that she is the one he does really love and appreciate,please do not repeat your same mistakes lo...

since that day i get inspiration from him, I do really appreciate the changes in me that inspired by him..

凡事只要用平常心去看待，无论得失成败，一切都能迎刃而解。。

遇到不如意的事时，请深呼吸，再笑一笑，告诉自己这一切都有解决方法的。。

相信自己。。

祝福他们。。

谢谢你，義傑

TARGETS

2010-08-20T11:05:00.000+08:00

There is one more holiday week to go before my school starts.

So,I decided to go back to my hometown in order to rest my mind and recharge my energy for the new sem.

few targets to achieve in this new semester :

study hard ( do not so slack anymore~~)
get well along with my coursemates (since all the while I have no chance to join them due to trainings).
get some buddy that really can share my ups and downs

Last thing,do not spend too much of money in shopping anymore..feel quite guilty when I see my cupboard full of clothes. There are still much more clothes in plastic bags..OMG~~~

Quite a long time I do not really be narcissism already..read an article before,one of the ways to make yourself happy is to camwhore~~ (in terms of you get take nice picture,if not you will get more depressed)

Here what I did to make myself happy ( may be is a poor reason to you???)

hehe =)

took yesterday~~is still fresh~~

like this picture XD

when the going gets tough,the tough get going..

2010-08-18T18:15:00.000+08:00

knowing that you are facing a breaking point of your life,you have to go through many troubles after graduating such as finding jobs and have to pay your loan.

I believe that the burden on your shoulder is getting heavier..

However,you never be defeated by those problems..

may be you are hiding your sadness,your downs,your disappointments or your vexation from me..

You know that nothing that i can do for you,

there is only 1 thing but not the others that i can do is just to give you my mentally support and also provide a relaxation leisure time for u..

The following thing is not only for him,but for all of us..

"Life has its ups and downs, its peaks and its valleys. No one is up all the time, nor are they down all the time. The tough people who survive the tough times do so because they’ve chosen to react positively to their predicament. Tough times never last, but tough people do. Tough people stick it out. History teaches us that every problem has a lifespan. No problem is permanent. Storms always give way to the sun. Winter always thaws into springtime. Your problem will be solved."

CHENG YEE KIAT, please continue your hard work,I believe that your bright future is waiting for you. Please get those troubles away!!!!! must 加油！！！！！

will always be here to support you~~

where my salary goes to..

2010-08-16T18:50:00.001+08:00

I worked for 3 weeks during July holiday,supposed I should save a lot of $$..

The salary of course can cover my expenses in Sg including food,accommodation all that..

Besides this, the rest of my salary goes to.....SHOPPING...

who ask sg got GSS sales and National day sales..

most of them are quite cheap in price!!! (in terms of sg dollar)

Here are SOME of my capture,but of course there is still many more not in it.

I have bought quite a lot of clothes (i think 20++),a pair of ADIDAS shoes, accessories and also bags..

actually I have to control myself for not to buy to much of things already since my luggage cannot fit anymore..

~~~** CONTROL CONTROL**~~~~

P/S : CHENG YEE KIAT please do not persuade me to buy anymore

girls have to love themselves..

2010-08-14T21:40:00.000+08:00

there is quite long,but try to read this..i think is quite meaningful..

"關於生活
1.在乾淨的床上裸睡 2. 生理期不吃巧克力，因為會加重痛經 3. 養成記錄生理週期的習慣 4. 透過運動而非調整型內衣來塑造曲線 5. 不翹二郎腿，以免壓迫神經 6. 貼身衣物不干洗 7. 拉風的丁字褲不適宜日常穿著 8. 去年的衣服要進行曝曬後才可以穿 9. 如非必要，不使用衛生護墊 10. 定期檢查化妝品的保質期 11. 洗浴後一小時再化妝 12. 即使愛美，也不要在耳朵上部的外緣軟骨部位穿耳洞 13. 了解自己的家庭病史，特別是母親和外婆的病史

關於飲食
1. 在牛奶和豆漿之間，選擇後者 2. 覺得還可以再吃半碗飯時，離開餐桌 3. 如果身體不感到飢渴，每天只需飲用4杯水 4.多喝酸奶 5. 無論什麼原因，都別抽煙 6. 在食譜裡添加雜糧和菜蔬 7. 飲綠茶勝過紅茶 8. 重視早餐多過晚餐 9. 控制鹽的用量 10. 起床後先刷牙，再喝水 11. 經常嚼口香糖 12. 一早一晚，兩個蘋果可以有效改善便秘 13. 純素食可能導致荷爾蒙分泌異常，造成不孕 14. 每周至少吃一次魚 15.遠離可樂等碳酸飲料 16. 不喝久煮的火鍋湯 17. 沒有果汁牛奶這回事，它們是天生的冤家 18. 飯前吃水果勝過飯後 19. 睡前可以來一杯紅葡萄酒 20. 喝咖啡可能引起女性骨質疏松

關於運動
1. 多享受早晨8－9點的陽光 2. 跑步、騎腳踏車等運動可以保持優美的腿部線條 3. 熱水泡腳可有效預防靜脈曲張 4. 精神極度疲倦時並不適宜以運動減壓，休息更重要 5. 冬季少做戶外運動 6. 10層以下，不乘坐電梯 7. 每三個月改變一次你的健身選單 8. 每天運動半小時，而非週末運動3小時 9. 邊看電視邊做柔軟體操 10. 經常散步 11. 午休也是健身的好時間，不一定非等到晚上 12. 光腳穿運動鞋固然舒服，卻對健康不利 13. 睡半硬的床鋪更有利於頸椎健康 14. 去正規的醫院而非美容院接受按摩 15. 非運動狀態下不喝功能性飲料 16. 運動後休息半小時再入浴 17. 不在過吵的健身房中鍛鍊 18. 正確的姿勢比專程去健身更有效

關於愛情
1、如果發短訊息給你喜歡的人，他不回。不要再發。 2、不要24小時都想念同一個人。可以分一點給家人和朋友。 3、如果男人以他忙為理由，不來探你的病情，不回你的郵件，不關心你的現狀，不能和你承擔生活的重負，無法給你勇氣。勇敢一點，自動離開。沒有什麼比自己關心自己來得實在。 4、學會承受痛苦。有些話，適合爛在心裡，有些痛苦，適合無聲無息的忘記。當經歷過，你成長了，自己知道就好。 5、不要為了任何人任何事折磨自己。比如不吃飯、哭泣、自閉、抑郁，這些都是傻瓜才做的事。當然，偶爾傻一下有必要，人生不必時時聰明。 6、一次只愛一個人。 7、記住你喜歡的人的生日，包括你的家人，當然，還有自己。 8、穿有質感的衣服，找有質量的男朋友。他不一定很有錢，但是一定要能讓你有安全感和開心。 9、愛那個愛你的人。如果只是你愛他，或者只是他愛你。趁早分開。女子不需要他人來假裝疼愛，你也不需要假裝疼愛某人。 10、如果決定離開一個人，行動要快一點，快刀斬亂麻；如果決定愛上一個人，時間拉長一點，看清楚是否適合你。 11、閑情時候自己煮花茶煮咖啡喝，或者做茶點吃，放一段柔情音樂，翻閱幾頁好書，然後睡個懶覺，快哉。 12、認真的對待你的工作。工作也許不如愛情來的讓你心跳，但至少能保證你有飯吃，有房子住，而不確定的愛情給不了這些，所以，認真努力的工作。 13、寧缺毋濫。不要因為寂寞隨手抓一個男人，這對你和他都不公平，而且太缺乏責任感。 14、對你不喜歡的追求者的示好和關心堅定的說不和拒絕。即使他說，這不關你的事。 15、如果沒有人陪，學著一個人完成。 16、任何場合，保持應有的涵養。學會說謝謝、辛苦您、對不起。做錯了事情要懂得道歉和改過。關於愛情︰不要認為後面還有更好的，因為現下擁有的就是最好的。不要認為還年輕可以晚些結婚，愛情是不等年齡的。不要因為距離太遠而放棄，愛情可以和你一起坐火車的。
不要因為對方不富裕而放棄，只要不是無能的人，勤勞可以讓你們富裕的。
不要因為父母反對而放棄，你會發現因為這個原因而反放棄的愛情，將是你一生的悔恨。
其實對於愛情，越單純越福祉。一生只談一次戀愛是最好的，經歷的太多了，會麻木；分離多了，會習慣；換戀人多了，會比較；到最後，你不會再相信愛情；你會自暴自棄；你會行尸走肉；你會與你不愛的人結婚，就這樣過一輩子。

關於愛情︰
也許愛情是一部憂傷的童話，惟其遙遠與真實。放棄一個愛你的人並不痛苦，放棄一個你愛的人那才痛苦。
若是有緣時間空間都不是距離，若是無緣總是相聚也無法合意；凡事不必太在意，更不需去強求，就讓一切隨緣。
逃避不一定躲得過；面對不一定最難過；孤獨不一定不快樂；得到不一定長久；失去不一定不再擁有。愛是一種享受，即使痛苦也會覺得福祉；愛是一種體會，即使心碎也會覺得甜蜜；愛是一種經歷，即使破碎也會覺得美麗；不要因為寂寞而錯愛，不要因為錯愛而寂寞一生。

關於伴侶︰
伴侶不是結婚時發願非你不娶或非你不嫁的那個人，而是發現你身上有許多缺點仍然選擇你的那個人；伴侶不是生活中你愛吃黃瓜ta也愛吃黃瓜的那個人，而是你吃蛋清ta吃蛋黃的那個人；伴侶不是天黑了和你一起手挽手走進飯店的那個人，而是守在門口巴望你回來共進晚餐的那個人；伴侶不是和你大談愛情，把“我愛你”掛在嘴邊的那個人，而是和你平淡的嘮叨柴米油鹽、鍋碗瓢盆的那個人。
在福祉的婚姻中，伴侶已不是一個具體的人，而是你和ta在幾十年的歲月中沈澱下來的︰一份默契、一份溫情、一份平淡、一份理解、一份寬容。愛ta就要讓ra開心，這就是伴侶........

關於承諾︰
在古希臘傳說中，情侶都將戒指套在對方的中指上，因為他們相信那兒有一根血管直通心臟。所以戒指的意思就是用心承諾﹗但是人世間有多少愛能生死白頭，又有多少的情可以天長地久？所以你選擇共度一生得未必是你最愛的，你最愛的未必能和你共度一生。
多少的有情人走不進彼此的今生，只能苦苦的相約於來世；而多少的男男女女走過愛情走進婚姻卻不會再珍惜彼此的付出。

所以記得珍惜你愛的人，把每一個平淡的今天當成是彼此相依的最後一刻，好好握緊愛人的手，即使ta容顏已老，即使ta滿面滄桑，那也是你記憶中永恆的溫馨。別忘了守住對ta的承諾，別忘了牽住ta的手，一生一世一輩子.....

關於人生︰
人生如夢，歲月無情。驀然回首，才發現人活著是一種心情。窮也好，富也好，得也好，失也好。一切都是過眼雲煙。想想，不管昨天、今天、明天，能豁然開朗就是美好的一天。不管親情、友情、愛情，能永遠珍惜就是好心情。

記得有一個經典短信這樣寫著︰曾經擁有的不要忘記；已經得到的更加珍惜；屬於自己的不要放棄；已經失去的留作回憶；想要得到的一定要努力；累了把心靠岸；選擇了就不要後悔；苦了才懂得滿足；痛了才享受生活；傷了才明白堅強；總有起風的清晨；總有絢爛的黃昏；總有流星的夜晚。
人生就像一張有去無回的單程車票，沒有彩排，每一場都是現場直播。把握好每次演出便是對人生最好的珍惜。把握現下，暢享人生﹗

關於友情︰
有一天，友情和愛情碰見。愛情問友情︰世上有我了，為什麼還要有你的存在？友情笑著說︰愛情會讓人們流淚，而友情的存在就是幫人們擦干眼淚﹗

朋友就是︰偶爾會為你擔心、向你關心、替你心、想你開心、逗你開心、請你放心。朋友之間，懂得關懷才是難得.....傷心時不妨和我說；痛苦時別忘了跟我講；有病時別忘了通知我；困難時記得要請教我；失望時要想起還有我；開心時更不要忘記我。朋友的定義，就在於此.....我們是朋友，這就夠了.......

關於微笑︰
被人誤解的時候能微微的一笑，這是一種素養；受委屈的時候能坦然的一笑，這是一種大度；吃虧的時候能開心的一笑，這是一種豁達；處窘境的時候能自嘲的一笑，這是一種智慧；無奈的時候能達觀的一笑，這是一種境界；危難的時候能泰然一笑，這是一種大氣；被輕蔑的時候能平靜的一笑，這是一種自信；失戀的時候能輕輕的一笑，這是一種灑脫。不管是有什麼事情，為了什麼原因.....我們每天都要開心一笑...........

關於生活︰
日出東海落西山，愁也一天，喜也一天；遇事不鑽牛角尖，人也舒坦，心也舒坦；每天領取謀生錢，多也喜歡，少也喜歡；少葷多素日三餐，粗也香甜，細也香甜；新舊衣服不挑撿，好也御寒，賴也御寒；常與知己聊聊天，古也談談，今也談談；全家老少互慰勉，貧也相安，富也相安。"

F***

2010-08-14T15:41:00.000+08:00

I bear them all the time..although i keep complaining to u about this n that..
I know that you are in dilemma,no worries..
I will come over myself by leaving this bloody shit thingy behind of me..
those querimonies accumulating,better it will not be exploded..

I know,if there will be a day..
I will say 'fuck u' in front of them..

友谊与竞争。。

2010-08-13T18:06:00.000+08:00

真正的现实中能有多少这样的情况呢？？

“友谊可以促进竞争。当朋友间存在竞争时，应互帮互助，共同进步，这才是真正友谊地体现。

　　若两个人因竞争而反目成仇，互相利用，互相陷害，那么他们二人绝对不是朋友，存在的也不是真正的友谊。

　　如果因竞争而失去了友谊，那么他所失去的远比得到的多。

　　朋友间友谊的见证，可以使竞争减小压力，可以使竞争降低难度，可以使竞争者增强信心。

　　面对竞争，朋友之间并肩作战，其利无穷。

　　竞争是残酷的，而友谊是温暖的。一切冰遇热会消逝，一切严冰遇阳光总会融化。

　　竞争的风帆在友情的海洋里，可以乘风破浪，奔至彼岸。而风帆失去了海洋，无法航行；海洋失去了一只风帆，依旧会有其他帆船。

　　竞争是短暂的，而友谊却可以长久。长久的友谊，可以暖人长久；而短暂的竞争，除了短暂的胜利喜悦，就是"恼人"的失败体验，无法暖心，却可能寒心。但是，并不是只要友谊不要竞争。

　　当今社会，逆水行舟，不进则退。没有竞争，就无法立足于社会。

　　俗话说，团结就是力量。有了力量，就有了竞争的本钱。而力量可来自于团结，团结则建立在友谊的基础上。

　　所以，友谊可以铸就竞争的成功。

对于友情，我们不要求为对方两肋插刀，不要求为对方赴汤蹈火，只要困难时能够帮助一下，痛苦时能够倾诉苦衷，快乐时能够共同分享，就足够了。”

there is nothing but believe in urself..

2010-08-13T10:39:00.000+08:00

After working ,actually i am quite pressed about my working result.I gave myself too much of pressure and i was starting to blame myself of my stupidness and inefficiency.

Seriously, i just work as a student caller at

NTU,calling those alumni to make a contribution back to NTU.

althoug is $9 per hour,but actually is a hard work.I can feel the realism of life which may let me down and also spoil my whole day mood.

Since he was supervisor for that job before,so he gave me many advices and suggestions. Actually everytime i meet him,I do not really wish to tell him about the working condition. However,I just cant control myself to ask for his solution if he is facing variety of situations.

In the end, I found that i do really have to try what he said.

'Just do your job,do not care much of the result,is only $9 per hour,is not worth to be so stressed about it.Moreover,it is not your company,the donation is not put into your own account.This kind of job seriously is all about luck.All people are saying the same thing,only the matter which person you deal with,either is the kind-hearted one or the cruel one.Do not care what other people showing off to you or pressure you.As long as you have done what you should do then alright already..'

Yup,I have to carry out what he said. I also do not wish I will be defeated by this little problem..

Believe in myself, Pei Tsan..

Waiting..

2010-08-12T11:28:00.000+08:00

The nature of human experience is often about 'Waiting'...

Reality is an experiment in our lives..

With time comes 'waiting'. We wait for many things in our lives that it would seem we never stop waiting,

from the time our mother's wait for us to be born until the time we cross over ...

we wait! One of the lessons with waiting is to look inside yourself for answers, to determine if the wait is a short time, or years into the future.

Souls wait for freedom, guidance, and love as the journey of humanity is not an easy one.

We are told, early on, that all things happen when they are meant, patience being a virtue.

Some people live their lives in that belief system, while others create changes at every turn.

If you are waiting for the one - the romantic partner, they may not be out there at all, the romantic

Hollywood dream just a myth in today's world, so keep yourself busy.

Relationship are often difficult to find and maintain as souls seek personal freedom and heal issues.

If you apply for a job and have to wait too long, it is not your job. Look for another.

You will attract your job, if and when you are ready to work.

Waiting can be a time of growth, a time of frustration, or both.

We fill in the time with physical experiences then move to healing and soul growth

as we seek to find out more about what we are waiting for in the bigger picture of things.

If you are waiting for a creator to god type entity to return to save humanity, it will never happen.

We are simply leaving.

Today, many people sense the evolution of time and consciousness and await the time

of ascension to our soul essence of balance in light. Look in your hard to see how far off that time is.

In essence, what we are waiting for is to GO HOME..

Once a liar always a liar???

2010-08-11T23:03:00.002+08:00

Somehow I read about this short article,and I felt the same thing.

It's quite true.Have a look~~

"Being lied to by someone you love and felt you could trust is very painful and
frustrating. You love your partner,so you find yourself forgiving his/her lies the first
time, perhaps the second and third time as well, before you realize you are just
involved with a liar. However, because you feel strongly for this person, it is not easy
for you to break away, even though you know that is probably what is best for you.
You hang on, with hope that things will change and he will not lie to you anymore.
You justify staying with him by telling yourself that he is a good person and deep
down you know he loves you- and that your relationship is wonderful and perfect-
except when he lies.

What you need to ask yourself when this happens is: Do you consider a wonderful
relationship one in which your partner lies to you? Is being lied to by a liar your idea
of love and respect? When you are emotionally involved with someone, it is not always
easy to ask and answer these logical questions. You often will make excuses for a liar,

just to make yourself feel better about staying with someone who does not truly respect
you. When your partner lies to you, it is because he does not respect you and is not as
committed to the relationship as you would like to believe.

Of course, there are different kinds of lies- little ones and big ones, but a lie is still a lie,
no matter the size or reason for the lie. Look at it like this: if your partner can lie so easily
over little things that are unnecessary to lie about,then you can be pretty sure that he/she
will lie to you about bigger things that will really matter and damage the relationship."

学着长大。。

2010-08-11T19:02:00.000+08:00

去年的今天，已经是我大一的开学第一天了。。

但今年的现在，我还在假期中。。

都是那youth olympics games 的错。。

有时候，会真的觉得时间过得非常快，

很快，酱就一年了。。

再多一个月，我就踏入二十一岁的门槛了。。

偶尔，我会在想：当别人二十一岁时，他们做过了什么，我到底有错过了什么吗？

其实，我觉得我错过了许多机会。。

我错过了学习乐器的时间，错过了与昔日朋友的美好时光。。

回头想想，之前都为了学业而忙碌，没真正的享受我的人生。。

我知道，未来的人生还长，还有许多路要走。。

我真的必须学着长大了。。

已经不能像以前如此的放肆，任性。。

肩上的负担慢慢变得沉重。。

但我相信一切都会有自己的解决方法。。

既然我不能改变现实，我就要学着去接受它。。

以多方面的角度去思考，或许对整件事情都有帮助。。

佩珊，

请你要学着体谅，了解，宽恕，忍耐还有很多很多。。

不要再自我矛盾，转牛角尖，举棋不定。。

一旦下定了决心，就真的要做哦。。

加油！！！

我相信你会努力的！！！

所谓难懂的女生，一点都不难懂。。

2010-08-09T10:44:00.000+08:00

女生，其实就是很简单嘛。。

女生，对别人面前嘻嘻哈哈的，
当人群散去就会黯然寂寞。。

女生，在外漂泊闯荡久了，
总想找个避风港，为她遮风挡雨。。

女生，无非就是想发发小脾气，
看你怎么哄她。。

女生，无论外表有多么的坚强，
始终还是有小女人的内心。。

女生，总爱口是心非，
心里明明就很想要，嘴里却一直说不。。

女生，别以为他们都是没经大脑说话，
其实那句话已经在她们的脑里斟酌了好几遍。。

女生，可以说是天生的矛盾者，
小小事情，她们就会把所有的可能性都想出来。。

女生，别以为她们天生就爱哭，
不是对她重要的人，她才懒得对你哭。。

女生，内心也一样有恶魔与天使。。
一念之差，小女生都会变恶魔。。

女生，总会有善良的心，
但一旦不被珍惜，心机就会慢慢累计。。

女生，自古被称为‘红颜祸水’，
但她还可以是你的‘红颜知己’。。

女生，总会在你的人生中涂上色彩，
一路上为你创造惊喜。。

女生，其实用心去看，
还是很可爱的。。

平行线。。

2010-08-06T10:49:00.000+08:00

以前学过，两条平行线是不会有交集的，

永远都不会，只会越走越远，越拖越长。。

就像你和我，明明以前是多么的熟悉，多么的甜蜜。。

但如今，我们只能做平行线。。。

当初，我凭感觉的，问了你两道问题。。

当时你的回答是：当然不会啦！

但现在，你已经用行动破解了你的答案。。

有时候，我常想起去年的八月。。

那两封' 日记 ’。。

那时候，你让我知道当时你对你的决定有多么后悔。。

我了解到当时的我，对你多么的重要。。

曾不断地提醒自己，狠心做出决定的人是你。。

想起当时你的后悔和后来的挽留，我突然觉得很可笑。。

原来一切都只是当时候的感觉和心情，过一会儿就没事了。。

你还是可以过得好好的。。

甚至能拒我于千里之外。。

如今，你真的没事了。。

也是件好事，至少有她陪在你身边，应该觉得更开心了吧？

现在，我想我该真正放下你了。。

不闻不问，不看不听。。

很想把你的名字永远删除。。

有时候，爱情里有插曲，

它也是占生命里的一小部分。。

插曲过了，

你我的人生就成了永不交集的平行线。。

frustrated!!!!!!!

2010-08-05T11:35:00.000+08:00

early in the morning then i am damn frustrated already.
About the FOC group list,I have changed N-times due to this and that problems.
They do not clear the latest situations then keep asking me to change change change.
Sounds like I am not efficient enough to distribute the people.
Sounds like are all my faults.
WTF!!!!

They know that head of other portfolios asked me to change their subcomms list in eaach OG meh??
They know that we lacks of 2 GLs and 2 attached photographers meh?
They know that welfare also included first-aided in each group meh?
They know that newly added SAs list are very troublesome and did not reply attendance meh?
They know that Seniors list is not done by me meh??!!!!!
They know that SOMEONE is not doing his job meh???

ownself not check his mails daily, does he know that i wait his reply urgently??DONT KNOW
then only asked me to change this and that after I have done all.
GERAM!!!!!!!

Kiss the rain....

2010-08-04T14:45:00.000+08:00

Doing ntg at home..

heard about this song..

love it so much although is an old song..

KISS THE RAIN...

RS 1
I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And I'm woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
It's hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will

CHORUS
And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when
You can't even look me straight in my eyes

VRS 2/3
I've never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren't you supposed to be
The one to wipe my tears
The on to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
On that only, exists in my dreams

CHORUS

VRS 4
I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you

VRS 1

So why am I still here in the rain

等待

2010-08-04T13:10:00.001+08:00

现在的我，等待着大二的来临。。
等待着还有什么临时工作的消息。。
等待着hall office什么时候能让我换房间。。
等待着七月薪水的到来。。
等待着许多许多事情。。

我知道我是个没什么耐心的人。。
我不喜欢等待。。
在等待的同时，什么都做不了。。
时间一分一秒地过去。。
变得无所事事，无聊的过日子。。

我曾对自己说过，要趁这假期，先读读下学期的书。。
但就是懒惰，又看不明白。。
我曾对自己说过，要趁这假期，充实下自己。。
结果，还不是原本的我。。
还在徘徊原处。。

分分和和的2010

2010-08-01T20:31:00.000+08:00

在这年头里，得知许多朋友分手了，许多开始谈恋爱了。。
有些朋友已经与他/她的男女朋友有好几年了。。他们曾经让不少人羡慕他们的甜蜜，他们的爱情。。
但最终都是抵不住分手的命运。。
我想最大的原因是因为距离吧。。
虽然每次都说：“只要两个人相爱，距离根本就不是个问题”
但事实上，它就是个问题。。
我也曾经体验过那种感觉，并不好受。。
可是还是有一些成功的例子啦。。

有些就分手了，但又复合了。。在facebook 的status 就一直换来换去。。
他说：分手又复合是为了增进彼此的感情，了解彼此的重要性。。
但愿如此。。

有些是明明就没分手，但却爱换掉status..想要引人注意不？？
还蛮耐人寻味的。。

自古以来，爱情总给人一种神圣高尚的感觉。。
一旦相爱了，就会永远的在一起。。
如今的年代，爱情只是个游戏。。
游戏好玩时就继续，玩腻了就换了游戏。。

无论如何，祝福所有人。。。

MHS U6 Beta

2010-08-01T11:55:00.000+08:00

just saw lilin's blog,make many memories flashed back in my mind...
I have spent one and half year at Malacca High School (MHS) for my form six life. However,I did not really enjoy my life at there.

There was many ups and downs during that period.
I was still remembered how betty helped me during my first day in class.She is such a kind classmate,she brought me go to canteen,lent me her neat-handwriting notes,helped me photostat notes and many many more.
I have met 2 cute 'twins' in my class also--lilin and luah.Although they are not looked similiar on their appearance,but in size!! They are also humour and helpful. A pretty girl-chernyi, she is nice,but i have seldom chance to talk her.May be i was too shy.

A 'big sister' -eunice,she is always a sporting girl which shows her responsibilities as a assistant monitor. Btw,I not really talk to her,since I felt low self-esteem of my poor english.
another 4-flat girl, etheen. She is always so excel in her studies. I am so jealous of her cleverness and her friendly.
Only three guys in my class-onn wah,sau wai and leng~~They are so so funny and kind to me..knew that leng is facing some problems on his retina,there is a possibility he will become blind. Kinda worry about him,but nothing that i can do..

Many things changes during my form-six life in malacca. I have lost a best friend there,a long story that really cannot be explained.

actually i felt quite regret that i did not really join much in their activities. Sometimes i will feel that i was not belong to Upper six Beta. Is my fault also,since i do not take any initiative to keep in touch with them and join their gathering.
May be they have forgotten me as her classmate,quite sad if really like this.

Suddenly, I miss they all...

working for NTU Convocation 2010

2010-07-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

throughout the whole July, I have been working for NTU Convocation. There is my first time to be working in office,that is Alumni Affairs Office (AAO).

However,since I am just a temporarily student helper,so I just do some simple things such as packing envelope,goodies, or graduates' alumni card.

I have met some nice friends there.They all are seniors,I am the only 1st year student there.
Is a really pretty simple thingy,we just pack those things without killing any brain cells.
Or may be I can say it is non-challenging at all.
BUT WE ENJOY~~ because we can watch drama,listen to songs,chit-chatting while completing our tasks.

during this whole week (26/7-31/7),is NTU graduation of class of 2010. I am working there also as a AAO helper. I do really appreciate this working chance since I learnt quite a lot of things that inject more confidence into me.
Nice working with those friends also.

tomorrow will be my last day of working for convo week.Is a long day also.
Anyway,I enjoy it.

new feature of my blog

2010-07-26T21:33:00.000+08:00

Surprise to see a new feature of my blog???
ya,i just changed those template,background bla bla bla yesterday night.
hope to make my blog more adorable and also colourful, no longer blog post in only black and white or grey colour..
i added many gadgets like music,blog list somemore..
although i know that it is an easy task for many people,but i am still feel so proud of my REBORN blog..

i know there is not much blog post updated by me,since sometimes i am seriously very very lazy to write my feeling or thinking..
sometimes i may feel that it is not necessary to express your personal feeling in blog and hope other people will see it..
but if i think another way round,may be it is a good way to convey my ups and downs..

wish more to come~~

may be

2010-07-16T09:27:00.002+08:00

when i am still enjoying my sweetness with you,i am just drop from a high sky to the bottom..
no matter how i persuaded myself,i just feel pointless and helpless..
may be there should be a misunderstanding...
may be there should be a miscommunication...
may be is my suspicious thinkings..
may be there is just a coincidence...
may be may be..
there are a lot of may be-s...

the most correct MAY BE should be...
MAY BE i should not be so observant..
MAY BE i should just take it like a joke..
MAY BE i should just blind my eyes..

i swallow the disappointment when i know that you were flirting...
is not a fresh issue..
once and once again..
finally,u disappointed me again...

my fault...

41-5-761S

2010-05-28T00:24:00.002+08:00

41-5-761
许多照片的地点都是在那儿。。
突然，很想念那个小空间。。
属于你我的小空间。。

我们的故事从那儿开始。。
那儿，充满了我们的一切。。
那儿，就像是我们的‘家’。。
在那，我们一起读书。。
读累了，就跑去床上休息。。
在那，我们一起看电视剧。。
一起看‘天才冲冲冲’。。

一米高的冰箱，一直都装着果汁，牛奶。。
从外边回来，总是要喝个两口。。
还有面膜。。
开着冷气，敷着面膜，听着kenny G 的音乐，躺着温暖的床上。。
还有garlic bread..
那个被烘的硬梆梆的garlic bread 。。。
是我一直以来的耻辱。。^^

在那，为你收衣，折衣。。
收拾房间。。
在那，笑过哭过。。。
在那，拍下了许多你睡觉的丑样子。。
许多你扮可爱的样子。。
在那，十二点总是我们的宵夜时间。。
总会一边吃着chilli crab，一边看戏。。

从此，不再回到那个地方。。
即时经过，里边的摆设不再是熟悉的。。
里边的人，不再是你。。

我真的很想念。。
41-5-761S。。。。。。。。

back for a while..

2010-05-01T21:39:00.002+08:00

the reasons that i away from my blogspot for so long are:
the cheerleading championship followed by my final exam in semester 2 of my year 1....

actually now is still not a good time for me to write anything here since i still have my last paper on 6th may..
but somehow i do not have any studying mood anymore after my BS 108 paper on 29th april..
somemore not really feeling well these few days...the first time that i feel 'IS NOT EASY TO BECOME A GIRL'...

mix feeling in my heart,vexed thinking in my mind..
i do not know what is the reason that drive me feel nothing to my this exam..
not even stressed,not even sad....

many things happened,many things changed...
suddenly feel that many 小人appears in my life...
i start hating those people since they always doing bad things behind..
do they feel themsleves are so irritating and frustrating??
i tried to ignore them and let them disappear in my mind..
somehow,they ARE still my friend..may be just normal friend..
do not have any feeling towards them already...
may be i should just carry on my own uni life without them..

very soon, my uni life will be changed..
no more ntu aces cheerleading training...
no more routine from hall 12 to hall 8..
no more 41-5-761S..
no more rushing for training...
no more year 1 life..
no more roommate's problem..
no more..
no more...

exam

2010-03-03T12:18:00.002+08:00

tomorrow..
i am waiting for tomorrow....

feeling scared??
unprepared??
or feeling nothing??
whatever it is,
take it easy..

good luck pei tsan...
TILAM...
Take It Like A Man...

p/s:but i am not a man...

如你所愿。。

2010-02-26T17:58:00.001+08:00

若要人不知，除非己莫为。。
心虚？？
现在你觉得轻松多了吗？
我想会吧。。
因为一切如你所愿。。

i want my weekends!!!!!!!!

2010-02-07T21:34:00.002+08:00

since uni reopen,i NEVER have my good weekends...
all my weekends are occupied!!!!!!!!!!

for surely,my saturday is booked by cheer leading training..
have to face 'the first singapore cheerleading and cheering championship' on March.
everyday also train train train...
train until my whole body also pain~~~~~

other than that,my sunday also sure full of activities...
meeting la,outing la,sometimes training la,bla bla bla...

today i just went MSA FOC 2010 Sentosa outing...
definitely we all had fun there..
FOC rocks!!!

but then,now....
i am super duper tired.....
langsung do not have mood to study also..
just now only fall asleep in front of my book....
==''

my new year wish is....
i want my weekends back...
and want to sleep until 11am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wake up so early everyday now!!!!!!!
pity me~~~

失望。。

2010-01-25T16:45:00.002+08:00

多少年的朋友了。。
我们之间确实是是有心病。。
到现在，你还是欺骗我。。
糟糕的是，你还连同其他人来欺骗我。。

你自己也曾经对我说过，有女人的世界，就有勾心斗角。。
现在，你就是‘女人’的其中一个！！
说了一个谎，就要用千千万万个谎来圆。。
这你也知道的。。
难道你不觉得内疚吗？？
虽然我们的感情不如昔日，但你真的太过分了。。

即时是普通朋友，你也不应该如此欺骗他。。
对你，很失望。。

想着，这样的朋友，值得我在乎吗？？

若要人不知，除非己莫为。。

just about that...

2010-01-16T20:07:00.002+08:00

monday,tuesday,wednesday,friday and saturday...
cheer leading training...
25AUs in this sem..
omg..
i wonder whether i can handle it or not..
i do not wish i get the bad feeling again..

last 2 days,i talked to my parents...
initially,everything was alright..
but after then,my mum asked me about my last sem result..
i answered :'ok lo,at least still can maintain my scholarship.'
but then she keep on asking what was my GPA..
i was really frustrated,i felt ashamed to tell her my result..
honestly,i really dissatisfied with my result..
finally,i lost my temper to her..
i talked to her rudely..
i know it was wrong..
i am so sorry..

since form six,i knew that i will never always be the top student..
i am no longer always the top student in a small town..
in this so competitive university,everywhere is full with genius..
as he said,i have to suit to this situation..
i have to make myself get used to challenges..

anyway,i know that no matter how will i be,he will be always by my side and give me the most sincere advices..
爱之深，责之切。。

突然。。

2010-01-12T22:23:00.002+08:00

开学了。。现在我已经是大一第二个学期了。。
上学期的成绩，对我来说，算蛮不理想。。
我知道问题出在哪儿。。
我不够用功，多数的时间都用在别的事情上。。
所以，我一直提醒自己，不可在浪费时间了。。
最近，我都一直忙于training..
因为要准备三月的cheerobics。。
加上最近全身又好痛。。
sunburn，受伤。。
压力好大哦。。。
但还是得撑下去。。

刚才，一个人在房间，无聊到爆了。。
没心情读书。。
看看朋友的blog。。
觉得许多事情都改变了。。
朋友也变得陌生了。。
有的结婚了，有的有男女朋友了，有的分手了。。

我突然发觉，我很久没跟他们聚一聚了。。
即使有聚会，我们也很少谈到话。。
想想我们已经毕业了多久。。
3年了。。
时间真的过得非常快。。
当年的学弟学妹也都毕业了。。
庇中还有多少是熟脸孔呢？？

每个人都在自己的人生道路上奔驰。。
朋友，
祝幸福。。

sunburn..

2010-01-10T21:31:00.003+08:00

omg,i sunburn like hell..my face,my neck,my shoulder,my waist and my legs..all these parts sunburn so badly since i was having cheerleading performance and 'ra ra' for two days..i do not know that it was an outdoor activity and of course i did not apply sunblock..that was my consequences..have to take the painful..

now,my skin start to desquamate..is damnly painful..it hurts even i am jz wearing my shirts..somemore so ugly eh..my friends are all shocked when see me..some even can't recognize me...can image how badly my sunburn is..

argh~~~~~i hope my sunburn can recover asap...
Allah,God,Guan Yin,Buddha...please listen to my praying...
please please please bo bi me o~~
^^

My 2009..

2010-01-01T17:16:00.002+08:00

today is 010110..
let's i recall what have i done in my 2009..

-from january until june 2009,i was working as a temporary primary school teacher at SJK(C)KUANG..That was my first job in my life..received my first salary in my life and shopping with my own money~~i gained new experiences as a teacher and how the feeling was..

-in March,broke up with CJH..our relationship last for 1year 7months and 5 days..whatever,nothing much talking about it...he has girlfriend now anyway..^^

-in March also,i got my STPM result..4.0..proud of it..

-received offers from UM Medicine and NTU Biomedical Sciences and Chinese Medicine with ASEAN scholarship..I chose the latter and result to what i am now..the road not taken..

-met TYH,it was a short memorable episode in my life..wish him happy always..

-Participated MSA FOC Odyssey camp,enjoyed myself and knew many new friends..'BEST FRESHI' 2009 期待的新人 was me!!

-join ACES cheer leading,learnt first stunt in my life..injured myself like crab now..however,it was my choice..so i have to take the consequences...

-took my first university exam at NTU...say frankly,i didn't prepared well..so,the result..flying with DULL colour..but at least i can maintain my scholarship..

-went Thailand for cheer leading trainng camp..first time visited a country without knowledge of their native language...learnt some thai language..quite fun..^^

-injuries getting worse after thailand training camp..feel so helpless when seeing other teammates doing stunts but i cant do at all..

-last but not least,i met someone impressive in MSA Merdeka night and result to what we are now..YOSHI-哟屎(cantonese) Encik Najis..haha..^^

MY 2009 is gone..I am looking for a better year onwards..
jia you my friends!!!
good luck~~

家。。

2009-12-28T11:33:00.002+08:00

我回来了。。
我的假期就只剩下短短的两个星期。。
在这假期中，我只在家里待了四天。。
然后我就回到了新家坡，然后去泰国训练营。。

我好想回家，但这里还有练习。。
我好想回家，但路途遥远。。
我好想回家，看看我那逐渐年迈但还中气还是十足的父母。。
我好想回家，向最疼我的三姐要求洗脸，要美容产品。。
我好想回家，弹弹五姐的自拍照有多难看。。
我好想回家，看我四姐越来越圆的身材，叫她‘肥婆’。。
我好想回家，抱抱我那些可爱的小家伙，他们快认不得我了。。

我的家庭，从不会把爱表露出来。。
每个人都是刀子嘴豆腐心。。
爸爸是这样，姐姐是这样，而我也是一样。。
永远不会说：我爱你。。
其实，我知道你们都很疼爱我，担心我。。
而我，鲜少回家，连打回家的电话也少之有少。。
对不起。。

二十岁了。。
不是变老了，而是成熟了。。
思想也改变了。。
很多事情都必须自己负责，自己承担。。
很多事情不只要对自己负责，也要向身边的人负责。。
我，不想长大。。。

酒。。

2009-12-25T13:52:00.002+08:00

17th- 24th thailand cheer leading training camp..
we trained and had fun there..
at the last night,we had a great party in RSU..

当时，我突然觉得酒很可怕。。
许多人都喝醉了。。
有人语无伦次，有人放声大哭，有人变得凶狠。。
可能这只是短暂的人生丑态。。
可能醉醒之后就没事了。。
是吗？

其实，每个人的身边都不断地发生着不可思议的事情。。
每个人都有自己的自由，去做想要做的事。。
只要自己的所做所为不影响到别人，不伤害到别人就可以了。。
我们无法约束别人。。也没资格这样做。。

back

2009-12-16T23:46:00.003+08:00

It has been a long time i did not blog..
there is a reason..
since my laptop was not by my side..haha..
once i finished my exam,i went back to my hometown...
feel warm when met my family members..
they care bout me,concern bout me..
however,i am not that type of person who will confess my love to them..
but i know i appreciate them..
although sometimes my behaviour or action hurt them..
i am sorry..

another thing is i had a great time with someone that i love..
we went many places and ate so much food..
made me getting fatter..
but i miss the time that we together..

lastly,i am going thailand for my cheer leading training camp..
will be back in sg on 24th..
christmas eve...alone in sg...

good night..

NTU--> home

2009-12-04T00:24:00.002+08:00

3rd dec..i have done my first semester at NTU...
exam finally over..
time flies..
i am already a university student..
i graduated from my secondary school already 3 years..
i miss the time in secondary school..

since form six,i have been an outstation student..
i am considered as girl that will not really miss home..
but now,i miss my home and can't wait to go back my hometown tomorrow..
my hometown,a small peaceful town..
does not have much entertainment or shopping centre there..
but it brings warm to me..since my home and my family are there..

now i realize an important thing,
that is,
"Home is a place you grow up wanting to leave, and grow old wanting to get back to.."

random II..

2009-12-01T10:02:00.003+08:00

early in the morning,suddenly i hav the 'feel' to blog..
may be write something nonsense or whatever..

i still have 2 more exam papers to go..
but seems i am not going to 'chiong' for me..
so slack only la..
may be i can say is i do not have mood to study anymore..
i am looking forward for holiday~~

3 days more then i can go back my hometown..
i miss my nephew and nieces...
they are so cute and their baby face and pattern..
i wanna hug them and smell their baby smell..
wakaka..

may be this one of the ways that make me forget about my vexation, my stress...
ya..i can smile from the bottom of my heart when dealing with babies..
since they are naive,natural..
they will just always show their feeling and thinking truely..
this criteria is hard to be found in adults nowadays....
even friends also will let you down..

people grow up,accompanying with their own thinking and scheming..
no one will 100% know another's thinking..
some will act by wearing their masks...
ya..that friendly mask...
cheated anymore that they want to...

that is senario in this modern world..
朋友会带着面具对你笑眯眯。。
知心会脱掉面具对你笑嘻嘻。。
知心难寻。。

爱情世界不只只有两个人。。

2009-11-29T22:57:00.000+08:00

爱情的世界真的不只只有两个人。。
许多人都说，两个人在一起，开心就好了，无须理会外界的眼光及想法。。
但在现实生活中，有多少对情侣真的能活在属于他们自己的世界里呢？？

外界---朋友。。
若朋友不喜欢你的另一半，你该怎么办？
若朋友向其他人说你们的不是，你该怎么做？
若身边的朋友开始疏远你了，你又该怎么解决？

来自朋友的压力，真的不能低估。。
我曾经是那些所谓的‘朋友’。。
但现在，我却能感受到‘朋友’的压力。。

为何有些‘朋友’不能与朋友的另一半好好相处呢？
为何不能一起开开心心的相处呢？
我不知道。。
左右为难就是我的心情。。

朋友，你能理解我的心情吗？
朋友，你能理解我的处境吗？
朋友，我不想最后一次叫你-朋友。。

幸好，还有他支持着我。。
此时的我，就只想他在我身边就足够了。。。

random...

2009-11-27T22:38:00.000+08:00

19th nov-3rd dec is my exam period..
i do feel panic and nervous to this exam since i am not really well-prepared.
cant denied that cheer leading practise took much of my studying time...
but another reason that cause me fall into this panic situation is,i feel that i am no longer have the determination to study..
It is such a serious problem on me..
i have to maintain at least 3.5 in my result..
can i achieve it?i do not know,i even cant imagine if i fail to do so..
i m stressed mentally..but i seems relax..how come a???

actually i should not write my blog during this period,since i still have to mug for my exam papers...
but,bad mood now encourage me to express my feelings out here..
yup..something bad happen on me..
may be can say is i did a mistake tat may hurt my friend.
i should not do the same mistake that sy did at last time..
i should understand ps's feeling..
i know,i can guess her feeling,sure she feels bad..
i am sorry..
i will prevent something worse off happen..
i am also in dilemma...

next sem,my really 'busy' uni life begins..
25 AUs...what a nice uni life..
i hope that i still can cope with my studies and my cheer leading trainings..
just hope that i can do well in all what i want to achieve....

pei tsan,now u should be grateful since you have everything that other people chasing for..
so,you must appreciate....
appreciate what you have..
if you do not do so,your everything will become nothing...
do remember.....

write shuang...

2009-10-18T12:15:00.000+08:00

quite a long time i din post any new post..
quite bz recently..
bz 4 my test,practices bla bla bla...
everything looks normal,ntg much changes in my routine..
but a great thing changed in my life nw..
i m happy 2 it..
n i do fine here..
will 'fight' until d last minute!!!!!!!
n i kno i will b d winner...(a bit over-confident)
hehe..

jia you ba~~~

再一次。。

2009-10-03T21:31:00.000+08:00

那种讨厌的感觉。。
那种再一次被伤害的感觉。。
那种再一次愿意变笨的感觉。。。
回来了。。

不是对自己说好，要向过去说再见吗？
结果还是那么的懦弱。。
没用。。真的很没用。。
明明事实就是那么的清楚。。
但却又再一次的傻傻的把头栽进去。。
笨蛋笨蛋，，你什么时候才能活得真正的潇洒？？

无聊。。

2009-10-03T10:57:00.000+08:00

recess week 快结束了。。
但我做了什么东西啊？？
我好像浪费了一个星期读书的时间。。
大多数时间都提不起精神读书。。

修剪了头发，挑染了头发。。
甩甩以往的伤痛，向以前的我说拜拜。。
换个新发型，新心情面对我以后的路。。

123，青红灯。。
现在的我还不知道，我到底处在哪种颜色的阶段。。
混乱中，我把一切都搞得更复杂了。。

心如止水。。

2009-09-20T21:22:00.000+08:00

能做到吗？？
很难吧？？
人类都是奇怪的动物，心情参杂了喜怒哀乐。。

最近我发生的事情，你都知道吗？？
你不知道。。
最近我烦恼些什么东西，你知道吗？？
你不知道。。
最近我的想法是怎样，你知道吗？？
你还是不知道。。
因为你已渐渐地离开了我的世界。。

最近你发生了什么事情，我不知道。。
最近你在忙些什么，我不知道。。
最近你在想些什么，我不知道。。
最近你的心情又是如何，我还是不知道。。
因为，我也要渐渐地把你的影子从我的世界里抽离。。

心如止水。。
我慢慢有了这种感觉。。。
失望过，伤心过，后悔过，尝试过。。
放弃过，忍耐过，适应过。。。
我成长了。。。

911

2009-09-12T18:22:00.000+08:00

笨蛋的生日。。
原本以为只是个普通的一天。。
没期待什么惊喜。。
在新的环境庆祝生日，应该就是普普通通的过吧。。

但我却很珍惜今年的生日。。
许多朋友都陪我一起度过。。
他们看我最近有点emo emo 的，所以想做点事情让我开心。。
说真的，即时没有礼物，但却让我很开心感动。。
真的十分谢谢他们。。
我感觉到朋友的支持和温暖。。
此外，还有个很可爱的洋娃娃。。
谢谢encik najis lo..
嘿嘿。。
还有分心意很重的礼物。。
谢谢yuan hui..
为我付出那么多努力。。

很快，笨蛋的生日就这样过去了。。
但却有个小小的遗憾。。
但无所谓啦。。
有朋友，我就不怕。。
我知道，他们都很关心我。。

谢谢噢!!!!!!!!!!

Smile is the biggest gift

男生女生

TMD

那些年。。

亲爱的自己

=)

picture sharing !

BATAM trip

260611 Museumssss

？问号 ？

swallow

miss

viva

happy bday~

我的朋友

我想。。

愿你， 安息

哭。弱。强

mixed thinking??!!

给你

慢慢的才知道。。

25句有意思，但很难实践的话。。

歌。回忆

好歌+心情

讨厌的家伙。。

他的柔情。。

2011 New Year Countdown trip

POST EXAM + X'MAS celebrations!!

finish exam for yr2 sem1

sharing~

tired des...

truth of love

nag~~

血虚天。。

dear god..

101010

爱一直都存在。单车

study . slack

MAF - m'sian night - CA

castle 。 spring

be grateful..

女人。 另一个女人

♥ 21st bday ♥

random shots..

my pre-bday celebration

miss u

MSA FOC

keep the FOC spirit on!!!

thinkings now!!

开始的路程

感恩

I m a fat girl!!!

update from me

TARGETS

when the going gets tough,the tough get going..

where my salary goes to..

girls have to love themselves..

F***

友谊与竞争。。

there is nothing but believe in urself..

Waiting..

Once a liar always a liar???

学着长大。。

所谓难懂的女生，一点都不难懂。。

平行线。。

frustrated!!!!!!!

Kiss the rain....

等待

分分和和的2010

MHS U6 Beta

working for NTU Convocation 2010

new feature of my blog

may be

41-5-761S

back for a while..

exam

如你所愿。。

i want my weekends!!!!!!!!

失望。。

just about that...

？问号？

愿你，安息

女人。另一个女人