Thursday, May 26, 2011

?问号 ?

有人对我说过,一段感情的开始只需要一点点的激情,但如何经营下去就不再是激情所能概括。

爱情中,若没有了当初的感觉,就是否到了尽头? 剩下责任,更多的约束,负担,想必这段感情维持得很困难。 女生的多疑,多愁善感,碎碎念,肯定让男生抓狂。但想想,该女生的出发点是什么? 为了自己吗? 当自己的心意心思不被珍惜,换来反而是不谅解责备,女生会怎样处理呢?  我, 真的不知道, 但至少我知道 ‘委屈’ 的感觉已造成。 

今天,我没踏出家门。 关上手机,没与任何人联络,就连家人也联络不上我。 不是在闹失踪闹情绪发神经,就是想静静的一个人做自己的事情。 或许我真的很偏激,反正也没什么人会想起我,毕竟各有各忙, 不去打扰人是我能为他们做的。不断的对自己说,长大 了,要学会自己面对一切,就算身边有家人朋友又怎样?他们并不能一直陪着你为你操心为你烦恼。
我想了很多很多的事情,从以前想到现在,从现在想到未来。 真的很多想法想下就好,永远永远很难实行。 我陷入‘静思’中吗? 对亲情爱情友情理论当然知道不少,考试肯定拿高分,但现实中我承认我不及格。 很失败,我知道 。 反反复复想着,最后只想到一首歌:不让我的眼泪陪我过夜。
有朋友说我是个敢爱敢恨的人,我不肯定。 我的想法是既然选择了,无论怎样都要走下去。 但是否在爱情中也如此呢? 没有了感觉的感情还要继续吗?  留个很大的问号给自己。

连续看了许多的连续剧,很清楚知道现实哪有剧中如此完美。 
但我想到剧中的话, 若那个人带给了你脸上的一个笑容,就画一笔,看看谁带给了你最多的’正’字,那个人就是你的真爱。 我没试过,我觉得有点白痴。 可是我想知道,我带给了你多少个‘正’字。

我常和别人说些自己鸡毛蒜皮的小事,就连我身边发生的小事我也很想说。 其实,我是在分享,想让你知道今天的我过得好不好,心情怎么了。 我所谓的抒发心情,也已经很久没人愿意听了,也没人愿意花时间在我的废话中。 一直以来给我的支柱,在哪里了??

前几天,我姐说她觉得很累。 我听到时,我想哭。 因为我也很累,真的很累。 若眼泪真的能化作力量,让我走下去,我愿意流泪。 若泪流得已没有价值了,就该收起无谓的眼泪。
并不是真的像梁文音所唱:哭过就好了。

如果不再需要,就没有了坚持的理由。

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

swallow

sometimes when result can't meet its expectation,that's disappointment. yet when waiting is not worth at all for its result, that's hurt.

we always think from our own view,since when we can think on behalf of others? ya,i have grievance but who can be my listener? i have a lot of thinkings, but can u be my adviser? sometimes thing is still can't be settled after tear shed. try to put smiles on my face however failed. Blaming,complaining , nagging, twittering, thinking extremely and negatively , it is ME in your mind.  i don't know how many tears dropped although i know crying is totally useless. I am not independent as you, I am trying hard,really.

Maybe is just everyone has his/her own thinking, so is it so called  '性格不合' ?
nvm,just swallow it. it is not the first time. but i hope it will be the last time.
or maybe it is endless, it only will be ended with a full stop.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

miss

Hi everyone, i am so called emo now.
erm,not really also,may be is just bored by notes,notes, and notes.

Listening to Kenny G's music, I really miss those days in hall 8.
We put on mask together,you applied medicine cream on me when i was sunburnt.

ya,i miss it.

Monday, May 2, 2011

viva

recently you are getting sick of everything happened around you,include friends, accommodation, work, health all that.. i know all these yet i really feel so helpless since i can't do anything for you.
However, when i said  :“ 我的怀抱是你最温暖的家 ” , i meant it.

a very lou tou  quote : everything will be fine and alright, just cross the bridge when you come to it.
ya,it is really very lou tou and maybe is not considered a nice comfort also. Things easy to say,but hard to get it real, right?  i really do not know what else can i say and help you, but one thing for sure is that i will be always by your side, every moment every single second. <3

Don't think too much ~

i believe that whatever you face, it will strength you into a better man.=)


now,clear your mind and take your everyday happily. Life is short, do appreciate everything,every person,every moment together, and every every every single particle.

I also have to start my preparation for exam!! 1 week before my final, is seriously 'hug the buddha leg at the last minute'..

QUOTE from NIKE  : JUST DO IT !!!!