Tuesday, August 31, 2010

开始的路程


昨天是我的year 2 sem 1 的第一天。。
由于要帮忙FOC 的东西,忙到~~~~
上了中医诊断学的第一堂课,我发觉我好像开学了一个月。。
度日如年啊~~

每天晚上都有活动啦,会议啦~~ 
拖~~拖~~~~~再拖~~~~~
回到那该死远的房间,都已经是另一天的凌晨啦!!!
还要再处理文件记录等等,根本没时间读我的notes 啊..
老师还要每天上课时发问问题,一直祈求保佑:不要叫到我的名字。。
简直是快疯了,快傻了~~

但是想想,这一整个星期虽然都很忙,
但真的就这一个星期。。一年一次的FOC。。
猜想之后,就该不会那么忙了啦。。

虽然很累,就当它是个磨炼。。
虽然房间很远,就当它是个减肥运动。。
虽然没时间读书,就上课专心点。。
虽然没时间陪男友,就当作是小别一下咯。。

需感谢上天,给了我磨炼的考验。。
无论怎样,考验总会过去。。
最后留下的就是你的收获了。。

 珮珊,
加油!!!!!!
我知道你可以的!!!
我知道你会越变越强!!!!
我知道你身边还有支持你的人!!!
我知道。。。
因为你是张珮珊!!!!  



Saturday, August 28, 2010

感恩

重复想着这几句话:

认为自己是不值的,是最大的欺骗。。
认为自己是多余的,是最大的侮辱。。
认为自己是不够好,是最大的谎言。。

人生第一守则就是感恩。。
人总是想自己不能拥有的,而不感恩自己拥有的。。
我也是这样子。。

所有的女生 :你们是最漂亮的。。
所有的男生 :你们是最的。。

相信自己。。

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

I m a fat girl!!!

ARGH~~~

I am a fat girl!!!!!!!!!!

actually I do really think of diet de leh..
but then u know..back to my hometown,a lot of food is waiting for me...my family also keep offering me food........
somemore now is Ramadhan month,got the 'pasar malam'..

oh my god!!!!!!!!!!! 
how hard i persuade myself,but i just cant bear with my desire to eat........
please god!!!!!!! please stop me from eating....please make all the food disappear in front of me now!!!!!

tiew pei tsan, u r pig a??? keep eating!!!!!!!!!!

beh tahan!!!!!!!!!


want become like that!!!!!  jia you a!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, August 23, 2010

update from me

3 days I disappeared from my blog lo~~
since I am in Msia now!!! There is still 1 more week holiday from my new sem start..
better refresh my mind  and turn myself into a new leaf!!! hehe

recent updates!!!!


  • finally the FOC grouping list is finalized..if there is any changes again,just deal with it the day before FOC ba~~
  • actually quite looking forward to sch start although the first week will be damn busy..
  • my request to get single room is successful!!!!! Yeah yeah~~ previously,I dislike hall4, i dislike my first and second choice is not acceded, i dislike the dirty environment, i dislike the far distance from my sch, i dislike there is no air-cond, i dislike the double room..actually i should thanks for my blessing already,since many of my friends still haven't get their halls..
  • today,saw a picture which is took long time ago..during MSD,should be in january or feb..I found that actually he is so cute~~haha


what a face!!!!!!

                          
  • 1 more thing,finally they announced that they are in a relationship..erm...actually quite happy to them also la..since is really the end between us..hope that she is the one he does really love and appreciate,please do not repeat your same mistakes lo...

since that day i get inspiration from him, I do really appreciate the changes in me that inspired by him..

凡事只要用平常心去看待,无论得失成败,一切都能迎刃而解。。
遇到不如意的事时,请深呼吸,再笑一笑,告诉自己这一切都有解决方法的。。
相信自己。。

祝福他们。。

谢谢你,義傑







Friday, August 20, 2010

TARGETS

There is one more holiday week to go before my school starts.
So,I decided to go back to my hometown in order to rest my mind and recharge my energy for the new sem.

few targets to achieve in this new semester :

  1. study hard ( do not so slack anymore~~)
  2. get well along with my coursemates (since all the while I have no chance to join them due to trainings).
  3. get some buddy that really can share my ups and downs
Last thing,do not spend too much of money in shopping anymore..feel quite guilty when I see my cupboard full of clothes. There are still much more clothes in plastic bags..OMG~~~

Quite a long time I do not really be narcissism already..read an article before,one of the ways to make yourself happy is to camwhore~~ (in terms of you get take nice picture,if not you will get more depressed)

Here what I did to make myself happy ( may be is a poor reason to you???)
hehe =)

took yesterday~~is still fresh~~

like this picture XD

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

when the going gets tough,the tough get going..

knowing that you are facing a breaking point of your life,you have to go through many troubles after graduating such as finding jobs and have to pay your loan.
I believe that the burden on your shoulder is getting heavier..
However,you never be defeated by those problems..
may be you are hiding your sadness,your downs,your disappointments or your vexation from me..
You know that nothing that i can do for you,
there is only 1 thing but not the others that i can do is just to give you my mentally support and also provide a relaxation leisure time for u..


The following thing is not only for him,but for all of us..

"Life has its ups and downs, its peaks and its valleys. No one is up all the time, nor are they down all the time. The tough people who survive the tough times do so because they’ve chosen to react positively to their predicament. Tough times never last, but tough people do. Tough people stick it out. History teaches us that every problem has a lifespan. No problem is permanent. Storms always give way to the sun. Winter always thaws into springtime. Your problem will be solved."




CHENG YEE KIAT, please continue your hard work,I believe that your bright future is waiting for you. Please get those troubles away!!!!! must 加油!!!!!

will always be here to support you~~

Monday, August 16, 2010

where my salary goes to..

I worked for 3 weeks during July holiday,supposed I should save a lot of $$..
The salary of course can cover my expenses in Sg including food,accommodation all that..

Besides this, the rest of my salary goes to.....SHOPPING...
who ask sg got GSS sales and National day sales..
most of them are quite cheap in price!!! (in terms of sg dollar)

Here are SOME of my capture,but of course there is still many more not in it.

I have bought quite a lot of clothes (i think 20++),a pair of ADIDAS shoes, accessories and also bags..
actually I have to control myself for not to buy to much of things already since my luggage cannot fit anymore..


~~~** CONTROL CONTROL**~~~~


P/S : CHENG YEE KIAT please do not persuade me to buy anymore

Saturday, August 14, 2010

girls have to love themselves..

there is quite long,but try to read this..i think is quite meaningful..


"關於生活 
1.在乾淨的床上裸睡 2. 生理期不吃巧克力,因為會加重痛經 3. 養成記錄生理週期的習慣 4. 透過運動而非調整型內衣來塑造曲線 5. 不翹二郎腿,以免壓迫神經 6. 貼身衣物不干洗 7. 拉風的丁字褲不適宜日常穿著 8. 去年的衣服要進行曝曬後才可以穿 9. 如非必要,不使用衛生護墊 10. 定期檢查化妝品的保質期 11. 洗浴後一小時再化妝 12. 即使愛美,也不要在耳朵上部的外緣軟骨部位穿耳洞 13. 了解自己的家庭病史,特別是母親和外婆的病史 

關於飲食 
1. 在牛奶和豆漿之間,選擇後者 2. 覺得還可以再吃半碗飯時,離開餐桌 3. 如果身體不感到飢渴,每天只需飲用4杯水 4.多喝酸奶 5. 無論什麼原因,都別抽煙 6. 在食譜裡添加雜糧和菜蔬 7. 飲綠茶勝過紅茶 8. 重視早餐多過晚餐 9. 控制鹽的用量 10. 起床後先刷牙,再喝水 11. 經常嚼口香糖 12. 一早一晚,兩個蘋果可以有效改善便秘 13. 純素食可能導致荷爾蒙分泌異常,造成不孕 14. 每周至少吃一次魚 15.遠離可樂等碳酸飲料 16. 不喝久煮的火鍋湯 17. 沒有果汁牛奶這回事,它們是天生的冤家 18. 飯前吃水果勝過飯後 19. 睡前可以來一杯紅葡萄酒 20. 喝咖啡可能引起女性骨質疏松 

關於運動 
1. 多享受早晨8-9點的陽光 2. 跑步、騎腳踏車等運動可以保持優美的腿部線條 3. 熱水泡腳可有效預防靜脈曲張 4. 精神極度疲倦時並不適宜以運動減壓,休息更重要 5. 冬季少做戶外運動 6. 10層以下,不乘坐電梯 7. 每三個月改變一次你的健身選單 8. 每天運動半小時,而非週末運動3小時 9. 邊看電視邊做柔軟體操 10. 經常散步 11. 午休也是健身的好時間,不一定非等到晚上 12. 光腳穿運動鞋固然舒服,卻對健康不利 13. 睡半硬的床鋪更有利於頸椎健康 14. 去正規的醫院而非美容院接受按摩 15. 非運動狀態下不喝功能性飲料 16. 運動後休息半小時再入浴 17. 不在過吵的健身房中鍛鍊 18. 正確的姿勢比專程去健身更有效 

關於愛情 
1、如果發短訊息給你喜歡的人,他不回。不要再發。 2、不要24小時都想念同一個人。可以分 一點給家人和朋友。 3、如果男人以他忙為理由,不來探你的病情,不回你的郵件,不關心你的現狀,不能和你承擔生活的重負,無法給你勇氣。勇敢一點,自動離開。沒有什麼比自己關心自己來得實在。 4、學會承受痛苦。有些話,適合爛在心裡,有些痛苦,適合無聲無息的忘記。當經歷過,你成長了,自己知道就好。 5、不要為了任何人任何事折磨自己。比如不吃飯、哭泣、自閉、抑郁,這些都是傻瓜才做的事。當然,偶爾傻一下有必要,人生不必時時聰明。 6、一次只愛一個人。 7、記住你喜歡的人的生日,包括你的家人,當然,還有自己。 8、穿有質感的衣服,找有質量的男朋友。他不一定很有錢,但是一定要能讓你有安全感和開心。 9、愛那個愛你的人。如果只是你愛他,或者只是他愛你。趁早分開。女子不需要他人來假裝疼愛,你也不需要假裝疼愛某人。 10、如果決定離開一個人,行動要快一點,快刀斬亂麻;如果決定愛上一個人,時間拉長一點,看清楚是否適合你。 11、閑情時候自己煮花茶煮咖啡喝,或者做茶點吃,放一段柔情音樂,翻閱幾頁好書,然後睡個懶覺,快哉。 12、認真的對待你的工作。工作也許不如愛情來的讓你心跳,但至少能保證你有飯吃,有房子住,而不確定的愛情給不了這些,所以,認真努力的工作。 13、寧缺毋濫。不要因為寂寞隨手抓一個男人,這對你和他都不公平,而且太缺乏責任感。 14、對你不喜歡的追求者的示好和關心堅定的說不和拒絕。即使他說,這不關你的事。 15、如果沒有人陪,學著一個人完成。 16、任何場合,保持應有的涵養。學會說謝謝、辛苦您、對不起。做錯了事情要懂得道歉和改過。 關於愛情︰ 不要認為後面還有更好的,因為現下擁有的就是最好的。不要認為還年輕可以晚些結婚,愛情是不等年齡的。不要因為距離太遠而放棄,愛情可以和你一起坐火車的。 
不要因為對方不富裕而放棄,只要不是無能的人,勤勞可以讓你們富裕的。 
不要因為父母反對而放棄,你會發現因為這個原因而反放棄的愛情,將是你一生的悔恨。 
其實對於愛情,越單純越福祉。一生只談一次戀愛是最好的,經歷的太多了,會麻木;分離多了,會習慣;換戀人多了,會比較;到最後,你不會再相信愛情;你會自暴自棄;你會行尸走肉;你會與你不愛的人結婚,就這樣過一輩子。 

關於愛情︰ 
也許愛情是一部憂傷的童話,惟其遙遠與真實。放棄一個愛你的人並不痛苦,放棄一個你愛的人那才痛苦。 
若是有緣時間空間都不是距離,若是無緣總是相聚也無法合意;凡事不必太在意,更不需去強求,就讓一切隨緣。 
逃避不一定躲得過;面對不一定最難過;孤獨不一定不快樂;得到不一定長久;失去不一定不再擁有。愛是一種享受,即使痛苦也會覺得福祉;愛是一種體會,即使心碎也會覺得甜蜜;愛是一種經歷,即使破碎也會覺得美麗;不要因為寂寞而錯愛,不要因為錯愛而寂寞一生。 

關於伴侶︰ 
伴侶不是結婚時發願非你不娶或非你不嫁的那個人,而是發現你身上有許多缺點仍然選擇你的那個人;伴侶不是生活中你愛吃黃瓜ta也愛吃黃瓜的那個人,而是你吃蛋清ta吃蛋黃的那個人;伴侶不是天黑了和你一起手挽手走進飯店的那個人,而是守在門口巴望你回來共進晚餐的那個人;伴侶不是和你大談愛情,把“我愛你”掛在嘴邊的那個人,而是和你平淡的嘮叨柴米油鹽、鍋碗瓢盆的那個人。 
在福祉的婚姻中,伴侶已不是一個具體的人,而是你和ta在幾十年的歲月中沈澱下來的︰一份默契、一份溫情、一份平淡、一份理解、一份寬容。愛ta就要讓ra開心,這就是伴侶........ 

關於承諾︰ 
在古希臘傳說中,情侶都將戒指套在對方的中指上,因為他們相信那兒有一根血管直通心臟。所以戒指的意思就是用心承諾﹗但是人世間有多少愛能生死白頭,又有多少的情可以天長地久?所以你選擇共度一生得未必是你最愛的,你最愛的未必能和你共度一生。 
多少的有情人走不進彼此的今生,只能苦苦的相約於來世;而多少的男男女女走過愛情走進婚姻卻不會再珍惜彼此的付出。 

所以記得珍惜你愛的人,把每一個平淡的今天當成是彼此相依的最後一刻,好好握緊愛人的手,即使ta容顏已老,即使ta滿面滄桑,那也是你記憶中永恆的溫馨。別忘了守住對ta的承諾,別忘了牽住ta的手,一生一世一輩子..... 

關於人生︰ 
人生如夢,歲月無情。驀然回首,才發現人活著是一種心情。窮也好,富也好,得也好,失也好。一切都是過眼雲煙。想想,不管昨天、今天、明天,能豁然開朗就是美好的一天。不管親情、友情、愛情,能永遠珍惜就是好心情。 

記得有一個經典短信這樣寫著︰曾經擁有的不要忘記;已經得到的更加珍惜;屬於自己的不要放棄;已經失去的留作回憶;想要得到的一定要努力;累了把心靠岸;選擇了就不要後悔;苦了才懂得滿足;痛了才享受生活;傷了才明白堅強;總有起風的清晨;總有絢爛的黃昏;總有流星的夜晚。 
人生就像一張有去無回的單程車票,沒有彩排,每一場都是現場直播。把握好每次演出便是對人生最好的珍惜。把握現下,暢享人生﹗ 

關於友情︰ 
有一天,友情和愛情碰見。愛情問友情︰世上有我了,為什麼還要有你的存在?友情笑著說︰愛情會讓人們流淚,而友情的存在就是幫人們擦干眼淚﹗ 

朋友就是︰偶爾會為你擔心、向你關心、替你 心、想你開心、逗你開心、請你放心。朋友之間,懂得關懷才是難得.....傷心時不妨和我說;痛苦時別忘了跟我講;有病時別忘了通知我;困難時記得要請教我;失望時要想起還有我;開心時更不要忘記我。朋友的定義,就在於此.....我們是朋友,這就夠了....... 

關於微笑︰ 
被人誤解的時候能微微的一笑,這是一種素養;受委屈的時候能坦然的一笑,這是一種大度;吃虧的時候能開心的一笑,這是一種豁達;處窘境的時候能自嘲的一笑,這是一種智慧;無奈的時候能達觀的一笑,這是一種境界;危難的時候能泰然一笑,這是一種大氣;被輕蔑的時候能平靜的一笑,這是一種自信;失戀的時候能輕輕的一笑,這是一種灑脫。不管是有什麼事情,為了什麼原因.....我們每天都要開心一笑........... 

關於生活︰ 
日出東海落西山,愁也一天,喜也一天;遇事不鑽牛角尖,人也舒坦,心也舒坦;每天領取謀生錢,多也喜歡,少也喜歡;少葷多素日三餐,粗也香甜,細也香甜;新舊衣服不挑撿,好也御寒,賴也御寒;常與知己聊聊天,古也談談,今也談談;全家老少互慰勉,貧也相安,富也相安。"

F***

I bear them all the time..although i keep complaining to u about this n that..
I know that you are in dilemma,no worries..
I will come over myself by leaving this bloody shit thingy behind of me..
those querimonies accumulating,better it will not be exploded..

I know,if there will be a day..
I will say 'fuck u' in front of them..

Friday, August 13, 2010

友谊与竞争。。

真正的现实中能有多少这样的情况呢??    

 “友谊可以促进竞争。当朋友间存在竞争时,应互帮互助,共同进步,这才是真正友谊地体现。 

  若两个人因竞争而反目成仇,互相利用,互相陷害,那么他们二人绝对不是朋友,存在的也不是真正的友谊。 

  如果因竞争而失去了友谊,那么他所失去的远比得到的多。 

  朋友间友谊的见证,可以使竞争减小压力,可以使竞争降低难度,可以使竞争者增强信心。 

  面对竞争,朋友之间并肩作战,其利无穷。 

  竞争是残酷的,而友谊是温暖的。一切冰遇热会消逝,一切严冰遇阳光总会融化。 

  竞争的风帆在友情的海洋里,可以乘风破浪,奔至彼岸。而风帆失去了海洋,无法航行;海洋失去了一只风帆,依旧会有其他帆船。 

  竞争是短暂的,而友谊却可以长久。长久的友谊,可以暖人长久;而短暂的竞争,除了短暂的胜利喜悦,就是"恼人"的失败体验,无法暖心,却可能寒心。但是,并不是只要友谊不要竞争。 

  当今社会,逆水行舟,不进则退。没有竞争,就无法立足于社会。 

  俗话说,团结就是力量。有了力量,就有了竞争的本钱。而力量可来自于团结,团结则建立在友谊的基础上。 

  所以,友谊可以铸就竞争的成功。 

对于友情,我们不要求为对方两肋插刀,不要求为对方赴汤蹈火,只要困难时能够帮助一下,痛苦时能够倾诉苦衷,快乐时能够共同分享,就足够了。”


  

there is nothing but believe in urself..

After working ,actually i am quite pressed about my working result.I gave myself too much of pressure and i was starting to blame myself of my stupidness and inefficiency.

Seriously, i just work as a student caller at
 NTU,calling those alumni to make a contribution back to NTU.
althoug is $9 per hour,but actually is a hard work.I can feel the realism of life which may let me down and also spoil my whole day mood.

Since he was supervisor for that job before,so he gave me many advices and suggestions. Actually everytime i meet him,I do not really wish to tell him about the working condition. However,I just cant control myself to ask for his solution if he is facing variety of situations.
In the end, I found that i do really have to try what he said. 

'Just do your job,do not care much of the result,is only $9 per hour,is not worth to be so stressed about it.Moreover,it is not your company,the donation is not put into your own account.This kind of job seriously is  all about luck.All people are saying the same thing,only the matter which person you deal with,either is the kind-hearted one or the cruel one.Do not care what other people showing off to you or pressure you.As long as you have done what you should do then alright already..'

Yup,I have to carry out what he said. I also do not wish I will be defeated by this little problem..

Believe in myself, Pei Tsan..



Thursday, August 12, 2010

Waiting..

The nature of human experience is often about 'Waiting'...

Reality is an experiment in our lives..
With time comes 'waiting'. We wait for many things in our lives that it would seem we never stop waiting,
 from the time our mother's wait for us to be born until the time we cross over ... 
we wait! One of the lessons with waiting is to look inside yourself for answers, to determine if the wait is a short time, or years into the future.

Souls wait for freedom, guidance, and love as the journey of humanity is not an easy one. 
We are told, early on, that all things happen when they are meant, patience being a virtue.
Some people live their lives in that belief system, while others create changes at every turn.

If you are waiting for the one - the romantic partner, they may not be out there at all, the romantic
Hollywood dream just a myth in today's world, so keep yourself busy. 
Relationship are often difficult to find and maintain as souls seek personal freedom and heal issues.

If you apply for a job and have to wait too long, it is not your job. Look for another. 
You will attract your job, if and when you are ready to work.

Waiting can be a time of growth, a time of frustration, or both. 
We fill in the time with physical experiences then move to healing and soul growth 
as we seek to find out more about what we are waiting for in the bigger picture of things.

If you are waiting for a creator to god type entity to return to save humanity, it will never happen.
We are simply leaving.

Today, many people sense the evolution of time and consciousness and await the time 
of ascension to our soul essence of balance in light. Look in your hard to see how far off that time is.

In essence, what we are waiting for is to GO HOME..







Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Once a liar always a liar???

Somehow I read about this short article,and I felt the same thing.
It's quite true.Have a look~~

"Being lied to by someone you love and felt you could trust is very painful and
 frustrating. You love your partner,so you find yourself forgiving his/her lies the first
 time, perhaps the second and third time as well, before you realize you are just
 involved with a liar. However, because you feel strongly for this person, it is not easy
 for you to break away, even though you know that is probably what is best for you.
 You hang on, with hope that things will change and he will not lie to you anymore.
You justify staying with him by telling yourself that he is a good person and deep
 down you know he loves you- and that your relationship is wonderful and perfect-
except when he lies.
  What you need to ask yourself when this happens is: Do you consider a wonderful
relationship one in which your partner lies to you? Is being lied to by a liar your idea
of love and respect? When you are emotionally involved with someone, it is not always
 easy to ask and answer these logical questions. You often will make excuses for a liar,
 just to make yourself feel better about staying with someone who does not truly respect
 you. When your partner lies to you, it is because he does not respect you and is not as
 committed to the relationship as you would like to believe. 
   Of course, there are different kinds of lies- little ones and big ones, but a lie is still a lie,
 no matter the size or reason for the lie. Look at it like this: if your partner can lie so easily
over little things that are unnecessary to lie about,then you can be pretty sure that he/she
 will lie to you about bigger things that will really matter and damage the relationship."

lying partner

学着长大。。

去年的今天,已经是我大一的开学第一天了。。
但今年的现在,我还在假期中。。
都是那youth olympics games 的错。。

有时候,会真的觉得时间过得非常快,
很快,酱就一年了。。
再多一个月,我就踏入二十一岁的门槛了。。

偶尔,我会在想:当别人二十一岁时,他们做过了什么,我到底有错过了什么吗?
其实,我觉得我错过了许多机会。。
我错过了学习乐器的时间,错过了与昔日朋友的美好时光。。
回头想想,之前都为了学业而忙碌,没真正的享受我的人生。。

我知道,未来的人生还长,还有许多路要走。。
我真的必须学着长大了。。
已经不能像以前如此的放肆,任性。。
肩上的负担慢慢变得沉重。。
但我相信一切都会有自己的解决方法。。
既然我不能改变现实,我就要学着去接受它。。
以多方面的角度去思考,或许对整件事情都有帮助。。

佩珊,
请你要学着体谅,了解,宽恕,忍耐还有很多很多。。
不要再自我矛盾,转牛角尖,举棋不定。。
一旦下定了决心,就真的要做哦。。

加油!!!
我相信你会努力的!!!


Monday, August 9, 2010

所谓难懂的女生,一点都不难懂。。

女生,其实就是很简单嘛。。

女生,对别人面前嘻嘻哈哈的,
当人群散去就会黯然寂寞。。

女生,在外漂泊闯荡久了,
总想找个避风港,为她遮风挡雨。。

女生,无非就是想发发小脾气,
看你怎么哄她。。

女生,无论外表有多么的坚强,
始终还是有小女人的内心。。

女生,总爱口是心非,
心里明明就很想要,嘴里却一直说不。。

女生,别以为他们都是没经大脑说话,
其实那句话已经在她们的脑里斟酌了好几遍。。

女生,可以说是天生的矛盾者,
小小事情,她们就会把所有的可能性都想出来。。

女生,别以为她们天生就爱哭,
不是对她重要的人,她才懒得对你哭。。

女生,内心也一样有恶魔与天使。。
一念之差,小女生都会变恶魔。。

女生,总会有善良的心,
但一旦不被珍惜,心机就会慢慢累计。。

女生,自古被称为‘红颜祸水’,
但她还可以是你的‘红颜知己’。。

女生,总会在你的人生中涂上色彩,
一路上为你创造惊喜。。

女生,其实用心去看,
还是很可爱的。。

Friday, August 6, 2010

平行线。。


以前学过,两条平行线是不会有交集的,
永远都不会,只会越走越远,越拖越长。。
就像你和我,明明以前是多么的熟悉,多么的甜蜜。。
但如今,我们只能做平行线。。。

当初,我凭感觉的,问了你两道问题。。
当时你的回答是:当然不会啦!
但现在,你已经用行动破解了你的答案。。

有时候,我常想起去年的八月。。
那两封' 日记 ’。。
那时候,你让我知道当时你对你的决定有多么后悔。。
我了解到当时的我,对你多么的重要。。

曾不断地提醒自己,狠心做出决定的人是你。。
想起当时你的后悔和后来的挽留,我突然觉得很可笑。。
原来一切都只是当时候的感觉和心情,过一会儿就没事了。。
你还是可以过得好好的。。
甚至能拒我于千里之外。。

如今,你真的没事了。。
也是件好事,至少有她陪在你身边,应该觉得更开心了吧?

现在,我想我该真正放下你了。。
不闻不问,不看不听。。
很想把你的名字永远删除。。

有时候,爱情里有插曲,
它也是占生命里的一小部分。。
插曲过了,
你我的人生就成了永不交集的平行线。。

Thursday, August 5, 2010

frustrated!!!!!!!

early in the morning then i am damn frustrated already.
About the FOC group list,I have changed N-times due to this and that problems.
They do not clear the latest situations then keep asking me to change change change.
Sounds like I am not efficient enough to distribute the people.
Sounds like are all my faults.
WTF!!!!

They know that head of other portfolios asked me to change their subcomms list in eaach OG meh??
They know that we lacks of 2 GLs and 2 attached photographers meh?
They know that welfare also included first-aided in each group meh?
They know that newly added SAs list are very troublesome and did not reply attendance meh?
They know that Seniors list is not done by me meh??!!!!!
They know that SOMEONE is not doing his job meh???

ownself not check his mails daily, does he know that i wait his reply urgently??DONT KNOW
then only asked me to change this and that after I have done all.
GERAM!!!!!!!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Kiss the rain....

Doing ntg at home..
heard about this song..
love it so much although is an old song..
KISS THE RAIN...
 
RS 1
I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And I'm woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
It's hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will

CHORUS
And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when
You can't even look me straight in my eyes

VRS 2/3
I've never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren't you supposed to be
The one to wipe my tears
The on to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
On that only, exists in my dreams

CHORUS

VRS 4
I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you

VRS 1

So why am I still here in the rain



等待

现在的我,等待着大二的来临。。
等待着还有什么临时工作的消息。。
等待着hall office什么时候能让我换房间。。
等待着七月薪水的到来。。
等待着许多许多事情。。

我知道我是个没什么耐心的人。。
我不喜欢等待。。
 在等待的同时,什么都做不了。。
时间一分一秒地过去。。
变得无所事事,无聊的过日子。。

我曾对自己说过,要趁这假期,先读读下学期的书。。
但就是懒惰,又看不明白。。
我曾对自己说过,要趁这假期,充实下自己。。
结果,还不是原本的我。。
还在徘徊原处。。

Sunday, August 1, 2010

分分和和的2010

在这年头里,得知许多朋友分手了,许多开始谈恋爱了。。
有些朋友已经与他/她的男女朋友有好几年了。。他们曾经让不少人羡慕他们的甜蜜,他们的爱情。。
但最终都是抵不住分手的命运。。
我想最大的原因是因为距离吧。。
虽然每次都说:“只要两个人相爱,距离根本就不是个问题”
但事实上,它就是个问题。。
我也曾经体验过那种感觉,并不好受。。
可是还是有一些成功的例子啦。。

有些就分手了,但又复合了。。在facebook 的status 就一直换来换去。。
他说:分手又复合是为了增进彼此的感情,了解彼此的重要性。。
但愿如此。。

有些是明明就没分手,但却爱换掉status..想要引人注意不??
还蛮耐人寻味的。。

自古以来,爱情总给人一种神圣高尚的感觉。。
一旦相爱了,就会永远的在一起。。
如今的年代,爱情只是个游戏。。
游戏好玩时就继续,玩腻了就换了游戏。。

无论如何,祝福所有人。。。

MHS U6 Beta

just saw lilin's blog,make many memories flashed back in my mind...
I have spent one and half year at Malacca High School (MHS) for my form six life. However,I did not really enjoy my life at there.

There was many ups and downs during that period.
I was still remembered how betty helped me during my first day in class.She is such a kind classmate,she brought me go to canteen,lent me her neat-handwriting notes,helped me photostat notes and many many more.
I have met 2 cute 'twins' in my class also--lilin and luah.Although they are not looked similiar on their appearance,but in size!! They are also humour and helpful. A pretty girl-chernyi, she is nice,but i have seldom chance to talk her.May be i was too shy.

A 'big sister' -eunice,she is always a sporting girl which shows her responsibilities as a assistant monitor. Btw,I not really talk to her,since I felt low self-esteem of my poor english.
another 4-flat girl, etheen. She is always so excel in her studies. I am so jealous of her cleverness and her friendly.
Only three guys in my class-onn wah,sau wai and leng~~They are so so funny and kind to me..knew that leng is facing some problems on his retina,there is a possibility he will become blind. Kinda worry about him,but nothing that i can do..

Many things changes during my form-six life in malacca. I have lost a best friend there,a long story that really cannot be explained.

actually i felt quite regret that i did not really join much in their activities. Sometimes i will feel that i was not belong to Upper six Beta. Is my fault also,since i do not take any initiative to keep in touch with them and join their gathering.
May be they have forgotten me as her classmate,quite sad if really like this.

Suddenly, I miss they all...