Monday, December 28, 2009

家。。

我回来了。。
我的假期就只剩下短短的两个星期。。
在这假期中,我只在家里待了四天。。
然后我就回到了新家坡,然后去泰国训练营。。

我好想回家,但这里还有练习。。
我好想回家,但路途遥远。。
我好想回家,看看我那逐渐年迈但还中气还是十足的父母。。
我好想回家,向最疼我的三姐要求洗脸,要美容产品。。
我好想回家,弹弹五姐的自拍照有多难看。。
我好想回家,看我四姐越来越圆的身材,叫她‘肥婆’。。
我好想回家,抱抱我那些可爱的小家伙,他们快认不得我了。。

我的家庭,从不会把爱表露出来。。
每个人都是刀子嘴豆腐心。。
爸爸是这样,姐姐是这样,而我也是一样。。
永远不会说:我爱你。。
其实,我知道你们都很疼爱我,担心我。。
而我,鲜少回家,连打回家的电话也少之有少。。
对不起。。

二十岁了。。
不是变老了,而是成熟了。。
思想也改变了。。
很多事情都必须自己负责,自己承担。。
很多事情不只要对自己负责,也要向身边的人负责。。
我,不想长大。。。

Friday, December 25, 2009

酒。。

17th- 24th thailand cheer leading training camp..
we trained and had fun there..
at the last night,we had a great party in RSU..

当时,我突然觉得酒很可怕。。
许多人都喝醉了。。
有人语无伦次,有人放声大哭,有人变得凶狠。。
可能这只是短暂的人生丑态。。
可能醉醒之后就没事了。。
是吗?

其实,每个人的身边都不断地发生着不可思议的事情。。
每个人都有自己的自由,去做想要做的事。。
只要自己的所做所为不影响到别人,不伤害到别人就可以了。。
我们无法约束别人。。也没资格这样做。。

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

back

It has been a long time i did not blog..
there is a reason..
since my laptop was not by my side..haha..
once i finished my exam,i went back to my hometown...
feel warm when met my family members..
they care bout me,concern bout me..
however,i am not that type of person who will confess my love to them..
but i know i appreciate them..
although sometimes my behaviour or action hurt them..
i am sorry..

another thing is i had a great time with someone that i love..
we went many places and ate so much food..
made me getting fatter..
but i miss the time that we together..


lastly,i am going thailand for my cheer leading training camp..
will be back in sg on 24th..
christmas eve...alone in sg...

good night..

Friday, December 4, 2009

NTU--> home

3rd dec..i have done my first semester at NTU...
exam finally over..
time flies..
i am already a university student..
i graduated from my secondary school already 3 years..
i miss the time in secondary school..

since form six,i have been an outstation student..
i am considered as girl that will not really miss home..
but now,i miss my home and can't wait to go back my hometown tomorrow..
my hometown,a small peaceful town..
does not have much entertainment or shopping centre there..
but it brings warm to me..since my home and my family are there..

now i realize an important thing,
that is,
"Home is a place you grow up wanting to leave, and grow old wanting to get back to.."

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

random II..

early in the morning,suddenly i hav the 'feel' to blog..
may be write something nonsense or whatever..

i still have 2 more exam papers to go..
but seems i am not going to 'chiong' for me..
so slack only la..
may be i can say is i do not have mood to study anymore..
i am looking forward for holiday~~

3 days more then i can go back my hometown..
i miss my nephew and nieces...
they are so cute and their baby face and pattern..
i wanna hug them and smell their baby smell..
wakaka..

may be this one of the ways that make me forget about my vexation, my stress...
ya..i can smile from the bottom of my heart when dealing with babies..
since they are naive,natural..
they will just always show their feeling and thinking truely..
this criteria is hard to be found in adults nowadays....
even friends also will let you down..

people grow up,accompanying with their own thinking and scheming..
no one will 100% know another's thinking..
some will act by wearing their masks...
ya..that friendly mask...
cheated anymore that they want to...

that is senario in this modern world..
朋友会带着面具对你笑眯眯。。
知心会脱掉面具对你笑嘻嘻。。
知心难寻。。